Page 12 of Forget Me Not
“Fuck, you’re soaked.” He tugged the lace aside, exposing my pussy. His growl sent an electric charge through my core, sparking a desire I thought I had long ago buried. I jumped in surprise when his tongue licked my folds from bottom to top. In his eagerness or frustration—I’m not sure which, he ripped the lace from my body and tossed the offending material to the floor. For a moment, I was in a complete state of shock. No other man had ever touched me down there, and my panic took over. I clamped my legs shut, making Austin laugh.
“Love, this makes things difficult.” He rubbed his palms across my skin.
“I…” I took a breath and closed my eyes. “No one’s—”
My words were halted as he pushed apart my legs and buried his face in my center. Every lick and every nip had me writhing beneath his touch. My stomach coiled like a rubber band, stretched to the extreme and ready to snap as he slipped two fingers inside my channel. He bit down slightly on my swollen nub, pulling a scream of sheer pleasure from my lips. Nothing seemed to matter at that moment. Not my past. Not my future. Only Austin. I was lost to complete bliss as he ate my cunt like a starving man. It wasn’t until the cool air kissed my center that I realized he was crawling up my body towards my face. I stole a glance at his hardened member and sucked in a breath. This was really happening. Austin had already covered himself in a condom and was posed between my legs.
“Look at me, Mackenzie. If you want me to stop, I will. It will fucking kill me, but I will.”
“Please don’t.”
I dug my heels into his ass and tugged him forward. Austin let out the breath he was holding and sank inside me. There was a moment of sharp pain as his girth stretched me out to fit his size, but as soon as the sting abated—nothing but pure ecstasy filled me. Austin pressed a kiss to my lips as he slowly started to move.
He grunted as sweat beaded on his forehead. “Fuck, you’re tight.”
I could tell he was holding back, trying to go easy on me. But easy isn’t what I wanted or needed. “Harder, Austin. Please.” My whimper sparked something in him, and his movements became more precise. My body molded around him with each thrust. It was like I’d starved myself for years and my body was devouring every touch to make up for lost time. How had I gone ten years without this? I couldn’t tell where my body began and his ended. I was in pure heaven.
I could feel my body tightening around his shaft, signaling another orgasm. Austin’s lips consumed mine as he pounded into me, driving me towards the edge of no return.
“Let go. Mackenzie. I want to feel you lose control on my cock.”
His words spurred me over the cliff, and I let go. My eyes swirled with stars as my release tore from deep inside my soul. My pussy clamped down on his cock, threatening to milk him for every ounce of his seed. I could feel him speed up his thrusts until finally his dick swelled inside me and exploded. He grunted through his orgasm as if it caused him pain to let go. “Fuck.” He pressed his forehead to mine. I could feel his grin against my skin as he slipped out of me and crawled from the bed. I was spent from the over-the-top orgasm and could barely keep my eyes open. I vaguely heard him flush the toilet and the scraping of his pants as he picked them up off the floor.
I cracked an eye in time to witness him furrow his brow at something he read on his cell. “Something wrong?”
“Unfortunately, there’s an emergency at the hospital. Some kind of pile up on the interstate.”
“You have to leave?” I asked, knowing he was going.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean for this to happen. I wanted to lie in bed with you and then eat cold lasagna. I promise I’ll make it up to you.” He leaned over and kissed me deeply. “I can’t ignore the page. You understand, don’t you?”
The rational side of me did, but the emotional side left me feeling used. “Yeah.” What could I say? This was supposed to be our second date, and I had thrown myself shamelessly at him. Not that I regretted the fact I had finally broken the seal of my dry spell. Dry spell, more like self-imposed sexual sabbatical. Until Austin, I hadn’t even given men a second glance. I poured myself into being a mom and teacher. It was all I needed until now.
“I swear this isn’t me running out after having mind-blowing sex. I really don’t want to go.” He leaned down and pinned me beneath him on the bed. His lips found mine again as he ground his semi-hard erection into my belly. “I know this wasn’t what you probably expected, but I don’t regret it. The only thing I regret is having to leave.”
“Guess it’s par for the course when you date a doctor.” I giggled, relaxing beneath him.
“Think you can handle that? I promise to woo you if you can deal with me getting called out unexpectedly.”
“Woo me?”
“Yes. Woo you. You deserve to be treated like a queen, and I aim to be the one to do it—if you’ll let me.”
“Yes. I think I’d like that.”
“Good. Then I’ll pick you and Danny up Saturday morning. We’re going to go have a fun day together.”
“Wait.” I sat up when he moved toward the door. “You want Danny to come?”
“Yes. I know you’re thinking this is too fast, but Danny is part of you. I want to get to know all of you and that includes him. I promise to be on my best behavior around him, but I want to do this right.”
“Okay.” I smiled. How could I not? This man was like a dream come true, and he wanted me—and my son. “Saturday.”
I listened as he trekked down the stairs and let himself out. I stayed with the sheet clutched against my chest and sighed. I knew I should get up and clean up the uneaten dinner, but my body was too languid to move. I laid down on the bed and pressed my face into the pillow. I don’t know why, but my mind strayed to Danny and the guilt I had been fighting seeped in. I couldn’t stop the tears from forming, nor could I stop the self-loathing I felt. On one hand, I was still glowing with the aftereffects of a mind-blowing orgasm. But on the other hand, I felt like scum for feeling something for someone who wasn’t Danny. Even in my post lust bliss, I cried myself to sleep. My body wanted Austin, but my heart still wanted Danny.
God, I was fucked up.
Why did his ghost still haunt me after all this time?
