Page 32 of Emerald Queen
January 27th
Emmalyn says my past doesn’t matter. That I am her compliment and the one she is to be with for all eternity. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror. How can this woman, this perfect angel look at me as though I am a man worthy of her love?
She has no idea how deep my secrets go. No idea the devastation I could bring to this Kingdom. What do I do? Do I love her and forgo all the vile things I’ve done? I am so conflicted with myself. I do love her. With all my heart.
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February 14th
I told her. Everything. And still, this woman is choosing me. She promises the past does not define me. Even though it could be the thing that destroys me. Destroys us. Emmalyn has begged me to see the love between us and stop beating myself up for the things I did before her. I can’t continue fighting my heart. It wants her and only her.
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March 10th
I asked Emmalyn to marry me. She said yes… I cannot believe this woman is going to let me make her mine. I don’t deserve her, but I will spend all of my days trying to prove I am worthy.
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April 25th
We were married in a grand ceremony. The other kingdoms were here, well all but the Sapphire kingdom. I do not think Stephanie will ever forgive me for choosing Emmalyn. I didn’t mean to break her heart, but she was not the one I was to compliment in love. And she has Phillip now. They are expecting a baby together this September.
NO – Emmalyn is the one my heart beats for. Even Ophelia has put our past behind us. She knew that I wasn’t her compliment, no… she realized that soon after meeting Dane. He is her true compliment. And now they are having a daughter.
Emmalyn and Ophelia have put all that in the past. I only wish Stephanie could do the same. The kingdoms need to be united and I fear this grudge will destroy the kingdoms.
“Holy shit,” Emersyn gasped.
She couldn’t fathom the words she was reading. Had her dad been involved with both the Sapphire Queen and Onyx Queen when he was with her mother? She continued reading, his deepest thoughts creating panic inside her chest.
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June 30th
We’re having a baby. I can’t believe I am going to be a dad. A DAD. Emmalyn told me today that we will be bringing a beautiful baby girl into the world the end of March. She waited a few weeks before telling me, wanting to be sure. The doctor confirmed and the blood test told us it was a daughter. I can’t believe it. A baby.
Emersyn’s tears spilled onto the parchment, a dam of emotion bursting free as she continued to read his words.
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October 12th
My past has come back to destroy us. Stephanie informed me that her baby is my child. The news devastated Phillip. He died of a broken heart. I didn’t realize that was a thing until now. Emmalyn tells me it was my past and she doesn’t hold it against me, but I can see the hurt in her eyes. She is round with our own daughter and dealing with the news that I fathered another child.
Stephanie has agreed this needs to be kept between the three of us. It could destroy the kingdom if it got out. I just don’t know how she will ever look at me the same. How am I to look at Sarifena and never tell her I am her father.
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December 14th
My past is still haunting me. My philandering ways got me into this mess. Do I even tell Emmalyn or keep this secret? I can’t look at myself anymore. She begged me to stay quiet. Insisting it would destroy her marriage and mine. But it happened in the past… It shouldn’t matter.
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Emersyn was startled by the door snapping shut, the book dropped to the floor.
“Emersyn,” Drake grabbed the discarded book and set it on the bench beside her. “You’ve been crying. What is it?”
