Page 15 of Willing
“Yeah… ok” Dan stood watching me walk away.
I couldn’t believe he would be so forward. He was hot, no doubt about it – but he wasn’t what or who I wanted. I was fooling myself if I thought this would sway my heart. Walking towards my car I could only think of one person, Paul. It was always him my mind and soul craved – even if he didn’t acknowledge me.
Getting into my car I glanced back at the restaurant. Dan was stilled leaning against the wall, watching me. I smiled, waving as I backed out of my parking spot. His expression was pointed, almost sinister as he watched me leave. Looking in the rearview mirror as I pulled out into the street, I saw him turn and walk away.
Something about him was off – was it just because I had rejected his advances? I wasn’t sure, but I knew I needed to be cautious of giving him the wrong idea. He wanted more, and I didn’t. I would need to make sure I didn’t send the wrong message next time.
Driving my phone alerted me with a text message. Carefully unlocking the screen, I glanced at the message.
Dan: I had a good time. Sorry, I messed up the date.
Maybe I was overreacting. His text made me feel bad for my outburst. At a red light, I typed out a quick response.
Me: Thanks. Had fun. Sorry, I overreacted. Friends?
His response was instant,
Dan: Friends… Drive safe.
I felt better, but still had some uneasiness about him. A horn sounded behind me, glancing in the rearview I smiled, edging my car through the green light. Knowing I’d never be able to move on, I decided to stop playing games – I would just tell Paul what I wanted. If he rejected me, then I’d give Dan a real chance. I deserved some happiness – and Dan was willing to provide some.
