Page 66 of Viper
“Lake,” I hear whispered before Skylar’s dark blue eyes connect with mine as she kneels before me, “I need you to focus on me,” she pleads, “Just focus on my voice, on me. I’m right here.”
She grips my knees to keep me steady and focused, and my tears fall.
“He-he wasn’t breathing,” I choke out, and Skylar nods and whispers, “That’s it, keep going…”
“She’s getting her out of her trance,” I hear whispered with shock.
My breathing intensifies, “He-he, blood, so much blood,” and suddenly Ivy is before me with Luna and Raya.
“We’ve got you, Lake, we’re here, we’ve got you,” Ivy whispers as she covers my wrist with her hand, Luna doing the same with her other while Eagle keeps his arm around me and Sky, she gently places her palm on my stomach and promises, “We’ve got you…both of you.”
My body shakes and my sobs echo in the silent room as my friends all grip me tightly with tears staining their cheeks. While Eagle, whose son could die, comforts me, and that only makes me cry harder as I lean into him and sob, “I-I can’t lose him…”
“Lake,” I hear ten minutes later, and I look towards the door to see Ted standing there looking at me with concern.
Eagle helps me stand, and I tremble as I walk over to him.
“D-Don’t sugar coat it, Ted,” I hiccup, and he nods as he looks around the room.
“Out of all the members of my staff and students, I never thought you’d fall for a biker,” he says gently.
I sniffle and admit, “I didn’t know he-he was one at-at first.”
He smiles and mutters, “Well, that explains it,” before he sighs, “he hit his head quite hard, more than once.”
I shake, my tears falling already seeing where this is going, and I confirm, “He has a brain bleed.”
The men behind me tense, the pure aura of them intensifying as Ted confirms, “He does, we need to operate otherwise we’ll lose him, he’s already being prepped in the OR, Dr. Travis will be doing the surgery.” he looks around the room before looking at me, “He woke for a moment, he whispered your name before his heart stopped again.”
I feel my bottom lip wobble as my tears fall, and I nod as he squeezes my arm and says, “I’ll let you know as soon as he’s out of surgery, but Lake, you know the drill.”
“It’s a risky surgery and he may not-not make it,” I reply, and he nods sadly as crying can be heard behind me.
Ted kisses my head before he leaves, but I stay frozen.
I’m going to lose him, my daughter is going to lose her daddy…
I was too late to come to the realization that I wanted to fight for us.
“Lake,” I hear Blade whisper, but I shake my head and mutter, “I-I need a minute.”
My feet move before my brain catches up, and I rush out of the door and down the hallway before the sign for the ladies enters my vision, and I rush inside and into the stall just in time.
Everything I’ve eaten and drank today comes back, my stomach tightening every time I heave as sobs rip from me. The pain of losing Jaylen will destroy me from the inside out.
I take deep breaths as the heaving stops before I slowly slide down the wall of the stall and sit on the floor, my sobs tearing through me.
I’m a medical student. I know the survival rate, and I know the dangers of the surgery.
My wrists itch again and I look down at them, the scars in view and without thinking, I begin picking at it with my nail, letting the pain hit me, needing it to but it doesn’t work so I digin harder, pulling at the scar until it bleeds and I dig my nail deeper into it as I sob before I hear gasped, “Lake no,” and hands grab mine before I lock eyes with a blurry Ivy and I hear Psycho mutter, “Fuck, Prez,” and I hear Blade curse.
“Jax, pass me some tissue,” Ivy orders with a sob, and my tears fall.
They shouldn’t be in here with me, I’m being selfish…
“Here, cupcake,” Psycho says with sorrow before pressure is put on my wrists, and my breathing deepens.
“I-I’ve been so selfish, so stubborn,” I sob.
