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“Pumpkin?” Dad questions as Callum says, “I’ve packed the rig up and explained the situation, we’re now off the clock.”
My hands begin to shake, the vision of slicing my wrist with a blade pulling me so hard.
“Lake?” Psycho says, but his voice sounds distant.
My breathing quickens, and I look at my hands and see blood, Jaylen’s blood, and a scream builds in my throat, absolute gut-wrenching pain and fear filling me.
“Fuck,” Blade curses before my legs give out, and the scream erupts.
“Lake!” I hear shouted and before I hit the floor hands catch me by my armpits as my whole body shakes with my sobs. Ivy is suddenly in front of me, tears staining her cheeks, knowingexactly what I’m going through as she grips my cheeks and chokes, “I’m here, I’ve got you…” but my screams get louder and she wraps her arms around me, holding me close and I cry my heart out. So much regret fills me while my wrists continue to itch…
Chapter 25
Lake
I’m numb.
It’s been half an hour since he went into the back room, and Ted hasn’t come back out. It’s been half an hour since I’ve had the itch to cut, and Ivy had to hold me while I fell apart before she cleaned the blood off my hands.
Half an hour since I became completely numb.
“I’m worried, Leo, she hasn’t said anything,” I hear Luna whisper.
She had her babies while I was away. She shouldn’t be here. She should be with her twins, Ella and Anastasia, not here…
“He’s her universe, princess, and right now, her universe may not survive,” he replies with concern, and I can feel his eyes on me as Eagle, Jaylen’s dad, tightens his grip he has around my shoulders.
I want to cut, I can feel the itch, I need it.
“Get outta your head, darling,” Eagle whispers, reading my mind, and he gently grabs hold of my hand, and I look down to see my scar red and raised.
I didn’t even realize I was scratching it.
“I know it’s hard, I know you want to relapse, I know you are dying slowly inside the longer they take to give us some news. But I need you to have faith, to hold onto the love you feel for him to stay strong enough for both of you, for my granddaughter,” he whispers and my tears fall as I slowly lay my head on his shoulder.
The room is full, most of the brothers and their old ladies are here, most of them seeing my breakdown and all of them looking at me.
I can feel their eyes, yet I’m too numb to care.
Eagle tightens his grip on my hand when I try to move it unintentionally.
I need to cut, I need to feel the sharp edge of the blade on my skin.
“I’m going to go find out what’s taking so long,” I hear Raya snap.
Venom’s voice hits my ears, “They won’t tell you anything because you’re not blood related…”
“I don’t care,” she growls, “Lake is at breaking point, she’s barely blinked let alone moved!”
“Fuck it, I’m going,” I hear another voice I don’t recognize.
“Tank,” I hear Blade sigh, “just sit down.”
I hear a growl before the voice, Tank, snaps, “And watch our Sergeant’s love fall apart and cut herself again, no, we need answers.”
I flinch at his words, and Eagle shouts, “Everybody sit the fuck down now and shut up!”
I hear a lot of chair movement, but I don’t look up, instead, I concentrate on my wrist, the need to scratch it consuming me.
