Page 61 of Sicken of the Calm

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r u gonna leave that in until tonight?

Me

Yeah

Ezra

fuck

joaquin

baby

I have to bite my lip to keep mygrin from taking over my face. The warring sensations of wanting him with meright now, and wanting to wait and be good for him, is a familiar struggle.

Ezra

yeah

fuck

joaquin

take it out a few times tho

use lube around the rim lube it up again and then put itback in

do it before I get there at 7 clean yourself out 2

yeah?

I type out anok, notknowing how I didn’t expect him to want to take care of me, even in this. Ihave a study day today – I’m not nearly adventurous enough to do this in publicyet – so his instructions are doable. At his next question, my heart startsbeating a little faster again.

Ezra

r u hard right now?

Me

Yeah

Ezra

let me see

I stare at the text, knowing hephrased it as a request instead of a question just to make me feel exactly likethis, a little more desperate and pliable, eager to please. Still, I can’t helpbut hesitate, but as the old adage says; in for a penny…

I wrap my hand around the base ofmy dick, lifting it up and pulling my foreskin back to showcase the red, wethead and full length. I take a few pictures, feeling conceited and embarrassedas I choose the one that showcases my abs the best and send it off, this timewithout a caption. There’s a bit of a wait until the next text arrives. I smirkto myself, wondering what Ezra is going through right now, surrounded byhundreds in a lecture theatre, missing every single word coming from the pulpit.Imagine him flushed and slumped down on his seat, trying to hide any evidenceof whatever effect my pictures are having on him. Eventually, though, my phonesprings to life again.

Ezra

fuck

god fuck

r u jerking off?

Me

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