Page 53 of Scrape the Barrel
“Is there something wrong with that?” If there was, I wanted to know.
“Not many guys would invite someone’s child along on a date willingly… Let alone pack them their own separate lunch.”
“If it’s overstepping—”
“It’s not,” she interrupted. “I’m sorry. I really appreciate all of this. I’m just not used to…dates.”
I nodded in understanding as she adjusted herself on the blanket, setting the bouquet beside her.
“Do people swim here?” Avery asked from the shore, staring down at the small ripples in the water.
“Sometimes,” I told her. “It depends on the season. In the winter, it ices over, but in the summer, it’s the perfecttemperature.”
Avery looked over at us. “Does that mean we can swim?”
“Maybe another day, Aves,” Sage answered. “You don’t have your swimsuit.”
“We’ll make time soon,” I added once I saw the deflated look on her face.
From my side, Sage turned to me. If shock and confusion were a picture, that would be it. I wasn’t sure why she was so surprised I was willing to include Avery. Sage was a mother, and I had no problem accommodating that. Plus, from what I’d seen, Avery was far from a handful compared to the other kids that have come through this ranch for lessons.
Sage reached for Avery’s Tupperware as she said, “Why don’t you come over here and have something to eat? You can get all messy in the dirt after.”
Avery strode through the grass, which was shorter around the pond, and sat next to her mom on the plaid blanket.
“I wasn’t sure what to pack, but there’s those applesauce pouches with the fancy tops,” I started.
“Those are my favorite!” Avery squealed, reaching her hand into the container once Sage had the lid off.
Sage let out a small laugh. “Have at it.”
Avery took the container from her, digging through the contents. You would have thought I’d gotten her a pony or something by the look on her face.
“I brought her a sandwich, too, just in case,” I told Sage.
“Thank you. She might not eat it, given her current infatuation with the other things you brought her, but she appreciates it.Weappreciate it.”
I nodded, unwrapping my sandwich. Sage picked one up, doing the same.
We sat in silence, listening to the birds chirp in the pine trees as we ate. Even Avery was quiet, looking out at the pond. An occasional dragonfly would swoop down for water, then flutter away.
Nature calmed a wild mind, its presence drawing even the most stressed person to a point of relaxation. You couldn’t help but feel content out here, which was why I frequently visited. Sometimes, when life was too much, sitting outside with only the sounds of the countryside was the one thing I needed.
My fears, my nerves, they all disappeared when I was out here. Whether it was on horseback or foot,thiswas the only medicine I needed. And here I sat, sharing it with the two girls who came into my life unexpectedly.
While it was different, sharing this peace with them, I wouldn’t change a thing.
That should scare me, make me run to the hills and not look back, but it didn’t. Ever since my ex instilled such a huge self-doubt in me, I hadn’t wanted to share any parts of my life with someone else. But yet, here I sat on a date that I’d put together with the two of them.
I just hoped I was making the right decision.
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“This is too hard,” Avery complained from my left.
“Maybe you just need a smaller pole,” I told her. I should have brought a kids’ pole, but I hadn’t been thinking.
I was already fucking this up.
