God, that control.
I pressed my thighs together and exhaled, eyes fluttering shut.
This was ridiculous.
I was a grown woman. A business owner. I had a full prep list for today and a lunch service I’d foolishly agreed to test out on Saturdays.
I did not have time to obsess over a man who may or may not be able to serve as emotional bedrock or fuck me into clarity again.
Still …
I tapped a single line into the message field.
Are you awake?
I stared at it for a full minute before I deleted it.
Too casual.
I tried again.
Dinner’s on me next time. If you’re not afraid to let me cook with you watching.
Delete.
Too suggestive.
Too much power handed over on a silver plate.
Finally, I typed:
Last night left me with more ideas than I know what to do with. Wouldn’t hate seeing you again. When are you free?
I read it three times.
Then hit send.
No emoji. Just clean. Direct. Like I wasn’t flailing inside.
I set the phone down and walked away from it.
Across the kitchen. Through the house. I even walked a lap around the courtyard, barefoot on the stone path, pretending I wasn’t waiting.
But I was.
When I came back inside, the screen was lit.
Tomorrow night? I want to see what else you’ve got.
I smiled.
Wide. Stupid. The kind of smile I hadn’t let myself feel in months.
Maybe longer.
I typed back:
Bring an appetite.