Page 75 of Paradox
“Because it was three-thirty in the fucking morning!” I yell down at him. “I did everything I could to not make any noise.”
“Why were you awake that early?”
“Because I couldn’t sleep.”
“Wh—”
“Because I’d come all over my best friend's little brother!” My anger is tangible, like humidity clinging to every last bit of the cabin. “And I liked it. I tasted his cum, and I liked that, too. So shoot me for needing some time to process what the fuck happened between us.”
“Do you regret it? Is that why you left all day?”
“If this is how you’re gonna act, maybe I do regret it. Maybe you’re too much work.”
I can see the rage simmering in his eyes, and I squeeze him even tighter because this is the shit that reels me in.
I need to see the fight in him.
“Fuck you.”
“You really do wanna be broken, don’t ya, you sick fuck?” I scoff.
“You stink like fish.”
I yank his hoodie off his head. “You smell like me.”
Jin’s top lip curls and he grabs onto my wrist. “I smell like you when you’re clean.”
“Do you think you’ll ever learn that no matter what you do you’ll never be strong enough?”
“Do you think you’ll ever learn not to be a neanderthal who throws his weight around?”
I let go of his arm, shake his hand off, then lean over him to rest my hand on the bench. “Why would I when you like it so much?”
His eyes quiver the tiniest amount, and I feel him exhale against my chin.
“You like to be scared, don’t you, Jin? It's why you put up with me for a month. There had to be some place better for you to go, but you stayed because you liked it.” This time it’s his breath that shakes as he tilts his face upwards so his lips are in line with mine. “You’re turned on because you know I'm unpredictable. You might think you want soft, caring Eden, who'll wake you up with hugs and kisses. But we both know you’d be bored of that shit by next week. Because what I remember about last night, is that you lost your fucking mind the second my hand was back around your throat.”
“Fuck… You…”
“Not a fucking chance, little man. Because when I do, it won’t be because you asked me for it. It’ll be because I’m taking it.”
Jin moans, his eyes rolling as they flutter closed.
My nose slides over his cheek and I whisper in his ear, "Do you understand what I’m saying?”
His cheek rubs against mine as he nods.
“I need to hear you say it. Cause I won’t ask again.”
“Yes, Eden. I understand.”
The pain I'm feeling in my shins as Eden pushes me against the stairs should be enough for me to cry out. And under normal circumstances, I would. But this time, it's got my head floating and my dick hard.
I hate to admit it, but I think he’s right.
I’m hooked on him pushing me around.
I need to feel how much he wants me.
