Page 148 of Paradox
“So just do it then, instead of treating me like a baby.”
“I’m treating you like something precious.”
“And in doing so, you aren’t listening to me. I thought you said you’d always give me what I want.”
“I didn’t think the timing was right to include a caveat.”
“As soon as you leave I’ll just get up.”
He presses my hips down. “No you fucking won’t.”
“You’ve brought me water, lemonade,andcoffee. So what If I need to take a piss?”
“Then you’ll get your phone and call me so I can carry you down.”
“Oh fuck off!” I try to roll over, and he lets me—his hands sliding from my hips to the bed. “I bled a little. Big deal. How’s that different from girls bleeding during their first time?”
“Seriously?”
“I don’t want a damn biology lesson. I know you didn’t care about any other virgins you fucked.”
“There aren’t as many as you think there are.”
“That doesn’t change the point.”
“I wasn’t as big back then. And they weren’t as small.”
“Enough of your calling me small, bullshit.”
“Facts are facts, Jin. Marina was sexy, but she wasn’t a lightweight.”
“That makes no difference to the size of—”
“I thought you said you didn’t want a biology lesson? Even then, she was taller than you are now. And pussy's are—”
“Yeah, yeah. I get it.” I lift my knees to my chest and kick him off of me. Annoyingly, I do feel tender. It’s not horrible, but it’s there.
“We need to use more lube next time.”
I nod. He’s not wrong. “How long are you gonna make me wait?”
“That depends on how good of a boy you are.”
Feeling my cheeks burn, I turn my head away.
I hated it in the beginning; all the things he would call me that emphasized just how young I am. But now that we’re here, at a place where we say we love each other…
“I could be a good boy for you, now.”
He tries to hide the groan before he says, "Jin. You know that’s not—”
But as I turn back to him and drag my fingers over my bottom lip, he stops in his tracks. “Please,Hyung. You could use my mouth.” His hands grip at the quilt as he watches me lower my hand to palm my dick. “And you could use yours… I’ll stay on the bottom, and you can fuck my throat as hard as you want.”
I’m being unfair, and I know it. He’s only a man after all, and we’re not the best at declining such tempting sexual offers. But credit to him, he pulls my hand off my dick, and puts it on the mattress beside me. “We need to eat. We could be here for another two weeks, or it could be a month. And you’ve used up most of the sugar, butter, and pancake mix that was left.”
“I guess you could call that even for all the extra beers you’ve had.”
“I’m still in a calorie deficit most days.”
