Page 5 of Return of the Viscount
His brown eyes met hers once again. “I never said you were, my lady. Do you have other rules I as your husband should be aware of? No referring to my embarrassing military title, no looking at my wife.”
“I never said I was embarrassed by your military title,” she protested. “You earned that above other enlisted soldiers, and the accomplishment must be a source of pride.”
He bowed his head gravely. “You do me honor. But you also seem to believe I will meekly acquiesce to whatever you want, regardless of how reckless it is. No, I will not reside in the dower house.”
She tensed, but he spoke before she could reply.
“I am your legal husband, and I assume all of your friends and neighbors know. It would cause a terrible scandal and harm your reputation if you were to cast me off.”
“I would not be casting you off,” she insisted, striving to be calm. “If my lawyers say a proxy marriage is invalid, then we would have to abide by it.”
“You’d be making the marriage invalid by treating it that way. Now that I’ve met you in person, I know something must be drastically wrong for you to marry a man sight unseen, even if I do write interesting letters,” he added dryly.
Her mouth opened and closed, but her brain couldn’t seem to settle on the right response. This man was insisting he knew what was best for her.
“I would be happy to continue this discussion at dinner,” he continued, “but first I should change out of these damp garments.”
“Of course. I will have Talbot show you to your bedchamber. I hope you understand that you will not be sharing mine.”
“I assume you have a spacious apartment, Lady Blackthorne. Give me whichever of your rooms you’d like. I would never force myself on you. I will gladly give us time to know one another. And it is no one’s business but ours.”
She let out her breath. “Thank you. I will see you at seven when we dine.”
He bowed. “Until then.”
She watched him limp across the drawing room, and it wasn’t until she glimpsed him meeting with Talbot, that she stumbled back to sit on the sofa and close her eyes.Oh God, what have I done?
Michael, Viscount Blackthorne, followed the butler up into the mansion that had obviously once been a cavernous castle. Part of his mind memorized the route to his bedchamber, as any good soldier would, but another part of him was still stunned by his first encounter with Lady Blackthorne.
His wife.
For the rest of his life, he’d never forget his first sight of her, the lightning illuminating her beautiful, bewildered face, surrounded by a blond crown of hair. He’d been stunned, having convinced himself that only a truly ugly woman would need to marry as she had. Instead, he’d been astounded by her flawless features, the high cheekbones, the golden tones of her skin that hinted she was a woman of the outdoors. Her eyes reminded him of the petals of the Indian blue poppy, so vivid that he could have lost himself in their depths. Her figure was just as captivating, curves barely contained by her corset. He was still amazed he’d managed to speak to her coherently.
Talbot opened a door, and Michael preceded him into a spacious bedchamber, the chill of disuse now combated by a fire in the coal grate. The massive four-poster bed dominated although it was complemented by a wardrobe, writing desk, washstand, and several different chairs. He wondered if the door at the far side led to a dressing room—or his wife’s chambers.
“My lord, a maid will arrive soon to unpack your bag,” Talbot said, apology in his voice.
Michael nodded, barely noticing the butler’s departure as his thoughts returned to his wife. His very reluctant wife—he could see that now, and it surprised him, after the desperation that had hovered beneath each word she wrote. He couldn’t blame her for holding him off. They truly didn’t know each other but for words on paper. The instant connection he’d felt with her made them seem more intimate than they really were. If she felt it, she was fighting it, for he saw no hint that she might be as instantly smitten as he was. Her letters over the last two years had been the bright point of each month. He’d read them several times each, smiling at her lightheartedness, understanding that she tried to distract him with cheerful stories from home.
After the first few letters, Michael had assumed that Lady Cecilia was doing well enough, though in mourning, of course. His few friends in London had reported that the estate thrived, and that she had a dowry to attract any man she wanted.
But something had gone terribly wrong, and Michael, half a world away, had not seen it until the friendly letters were briefly silenced. The fact that she’d only come to him, a stranger, had made him feel concerned rather than flattered, and now, upon meeting her, his concern was only heightened. She’d experienced true desperation for some reason, and Michael felt keenly the vow he’d made to her father to protect his children.
He owed Lord Appertan so much he could never repay. His commander, a man more like a father to him than his own, had died in his arms. It would have been his last engagement; he’d wanted to return home to his children. With a bloody hand, Appertan had held Michael’s own and begged him to take care of his family.
So when Lady Cecilia, a lively, intelligent, amusing correspondent, needed help, he’d agreed to marry her. He’d thought for certain she was exceedingly plain and that she must not trust any man who’d want to marry her. There were fortune hunters out there, as he well knew—his own family bore the scars of such disastrous marriages. He wasn’t going to do to a woman what had been done to the women in his family: used for their money, not respected in any other way. His own father had been guilty, his mother a victim, and as a youth, Michael had seen his father planning for Michael’s own marriage to a wealthy girl, beginning to ensnare her family with lies. It was one of the reasons he’d enlisted at eighteen, forgoing even one Season in London. There were honest ways to earn money to restore his estate. Marriage would have been what he made of it if he married at all.
Michael had learned never to let himself show interest in a woman when he lived at home. He had held back, never giving himself the chance to know someone too well, too deeply. He’d never realized how much that continued through his twelve years in the army—until he’d begun to receive her letters. He’d been able to glimpse the life and heart of Lady Cecilia, and for the first time, he’d felt a yearning for a woman he could never have.
She was so lovely that he could barely look upon her golden beauty without wanting her with a desperation he’d never felt before. He remembered all those men who used to follow his beautiful mother around like rutting dogs. He didn’t want to be one of them either. Thank God the late earl hadn’t known how Michael would lust after her.
He remembered the shock on her face when she beheld him—old and infirm, she’d thought him, uninterested in a marriage bed. He’d done for her what no other man would do—denied her dowry and any claim to her inheritance.
But she worried he had ulterior motives, and the truth of the rash proxy marriage she’d asked for now stared her in the face. For a woman of intelligence, she’d not thought further than her own desperation.
He walked to the window and looked out, past the rain-streaked glass to the Appertan land, which must stretch to the horizon. He knew from her father the vastness of the estates scattered all over England and Scotland. He imagined even though she was now married, men still flocked to her.
Patience was the only card he could play. If necessary, he would dive into cold rivers every day to keep himself from seducing her before she was ready. She wanted a distant marriage—or no marriage at all, now that she’d met him.
