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“I don't want to fight or talk,” he said, his voice low and husky. “I just want to forget everything and be with you tonight.”
It was so tempting to give in, but my pride needed him to acknowledge my pain. “You broke my heart.”
“I’m sorry, Tania. You broke mine too.” Soros kissed me and although it didn’t feel like the great and sincere apology that I had hoped for, I still kissed him back with an intensity that carried the need to make up for lost time in just one moment.
The touch of Soros’s soft lips on my neck made me lose control, and I let out a deep sigh of pleasure. There was a familiarity in the way we moved together that brought me such comfort. I could feel how the heat built inside me, and my breath quickened. With every caress and touch I communicated my bottled-up desire and lust. And as our bodies intertwined, we moved together in a harmony that we had practiced and perfected over months together in the past. Engulfed in our own world of passion, I let Soros open my robe and undress me. His hands, lips, and tongue were everywhere on my body as if he was reclaiming what had once been his.
Closing my eyes, I sighed with deep satisfaction and took the pleasure he gave me as a token of reconciliation. Weaving my fingers into his hair, I pushed my core against his face and just like in the past Soros locked his arms around my thighs and made sounds of delight when he brought me to my first orgasm.
I was a little bit dazed and in the back of my mind I was afraid that it was all just one of my many dreams of making love to Soros. The moment he slid inside me, Soros held me in an iron grip as if unwilling to ever let go again. It healed a little splinter of my wounded heart and made me feel better about the way I shamelessly clung to him. Every time he pulled his hips back to create friction, I intensified my hold on his shoulders. And for every thrust it felt as if he wanted to sink deeper and create an eternal physical connection between us.
I craved Soros with my entire being and when he whispered into my ear in his deep husky voice that he wanted to fill me, I wasn’t sure if meant physically or mentally. I was so far gone in our lovemaking that I didn’t think about birth control or tell him not to cum inside me. Leaning my head back, I let my body meet his in the most delicious rhythmic friction. It brought me to a beautiful place where my mind gave me the illusion of floating as my orgasm washed over me with a soundtrack of sweet moans. Soros was louder and almost growled as he held onto me and roared out his ecstasy while calling my name. After we reached the height of our desire, we both collapsed onto the bed, panting and sweating. We lay with our limbs intertwined, breathing heavily, and enjoying the post-orgasmic high from our lovemaking.
It took a while before either of us spoke, but eventually, Soros pulled me close and kissed my hair before he asked, “Do you still hate me?”
My protective walls were down, and I felt embarrassed that I had lied to him. My eyes remained closed, and my voice sounded drowsy when I answered him. “I never truly hated you, Soros. I just wanted to hurt you for hurting me.”
He kissed my hair again and moved a pillow to get more comfortable. Exhausted from an emotional day, it didn’t take long before I fell asleep with my head on his strong chest. The sound of his beating heart had always worked on me as the sweetest lullaby.
“I missed this so much.” I wasn’t sure if the words were his or part of my dream. My answer might have been whispered from my lips or maybe it was only floating as a thought in my head. “Me too.”
CHAPTER 10
Frustrating Humans
Soros
Tania was fast asleep with her forehead against my shoulder. The sound of her breathing was calming and yet I couldn’t fall asleep.
We had wasted so much time.
Now that I knew she still had feelings for me, I felt annoyed with myself for having assumed she didn’t want me anymore. If only we had talked sooner, we could have avoided a lot of frustration on both parts.
Making love with Tania was different from my other sexual experiences. Her eyes expressed strong and deep emotions that I had never found with anyone else.
She made our relationship feel important and maybe that’s why I couldn’t sleep.
From what I understood, her anger with me was accumulated longing from the years of missing me. Tania had always wanted more from me than I could give her. She wanted a bond like the ones humans shared where they lived together. We Eidrons didn’t do that, and I wouldn’t know how to make it work. I had enjoyed my time on Earth, but I couldn’t imagine living here forever and I doubted Tania would give up everything she knew to follow me to Eidrona. Back when I had lived on Earth, the idea of Tania and me being a couple had seemed impossible. Now that Malliko was with Clara and Sival was with Jade, I wondered if there was a chance for Tania and me.
Rubbing my face, I worried that she would ask me to stay here. The thought of her hating me again for saying no stressed me out. And what about Nerix? We hadn’t had a chance to discuss what their relationship was about. I still didn’t know if they had been romantically involved or not. My mind was running in all directions and at the same time my body was tired and in desperate need of sleep.
Trying to understand all aspects of my dilemma, my thoughts went back to memories from four years ago.
4 years earlier
My assignment on Earth was to teach selected groups of humans about the different species in the Universe, and to help them understand the benefits of working with the Federation. As the Earth agent assigned to help me, Tania came with me to the different cities.
When I spoke to a small group of sixteen people in Washington DC, I had no concept of the internal issues between them.
Tania had explained that these humans were among the leaders of the country we were in and so I assumed that they would be mature, wise, and compassionate. Their rivalry and animosity surprised me and during a break, I complained to Tania. “Humans are strange.”
She smiled. “You’re very perceptive. Most aliens take more than a day to figure that out.”
“The hostility between the left side of the room and the right is disturbing my peace.”
“That’s because you have politicians, military leaders, and scientists with different agendas and strongly polarized views on politics. They don’t like each other. You see them as a homogeneous group of humans but in their minds, they are separated by profession, political affiliation, and lots of other things. This room is full of big egos.”
During the break we had stepped outside into the foyer where hot and cold beverages and baked goods had been placed on tables. “I like that woman with the elevated shoes. Her questions were intelligent.”
