Page 55 of The Ruler
“Yesss!”
“Khan, we shouldn’t,” Pearl said again but her legs spread wider and her hands moved to the small of my back, contradicting her words.
“We should,” I answered in her ear since nothing could feelthisamazing and be bad for you at the same time.
I wanted it to last for hours, but after only two minutes my entire body convulsed in an orgasm from the excitement and novelty of the feeling.
It took me a minute to clear my mind and then shame hit me. Rolling off Pearl, I hid my face under my arm, panting for breath.Fuck!
I’d given my word that I wouldn’t violate her and she had told me to stop. I couldn’t look at her, and disappointment with myself made me get out of bed and go to the bathroom to get my feelings under control.
I had been tempted before. That time in the shower I’d wanted to take her so badly, but back then I’d told her I would wait until she asked me to.
So why hadn’t I?
A kiss would have been sufficient to make my point. Why did I have to lose my patience and fuck up completely?
“Khan?” There was a knock on the door.
Ashamed, I opened the door to find Pearl with the cover around her body. I was still naked and felt like an idiot.
“Are you okay?” she asked.
I rubbed my face, having a hard time looking at her.
“I need some paper, I’m dripping,” she said.
Stepping aside I let her in and walked back to the bed, crawling in and wondering how I could make this right.
I was back in my briefs when she came back to bed.
“I’m sorry,” I said.
“I’m worried,” she answered. “What if you got me pregnant?”
“It doesn’t happen that fast,” I assured her. At least it hadn’t for my parents or my brother and Laura.
“You were very fast,” she commented and for the first time I looked over at her, surprised to see no anger on her face.
“Yeah, things didn’t exactly go as I’d planned,” I apologized.
“So you planned this?”
“No, I was hoping for…” I didn’t finish my sentence.
“Was it your first time with a woman?” she asked.
I nodded. “And you?”
She shook her head. “No, there’ve been other men.”
I’d never asked her but just assumed that she was the same as Christina, who had told Boulder that she wasn’t attracted to the men in the Motherlands.
“How many?” I asked, stunned by her admission.
“Why?”
Narrowing my eyes, I repeated the question. “How many men, Pearl?”
