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“Fun, yes, but only because you were here.”
Reaching her arm over to my side, Aubri took my hand. “You mean that?”
“Of course. My favorite part of the evening was kissing you.”
“Hmmm. My favorite part was seeing you between my legs and reaching my first climax with a man.”
“You didn’t like our kiss?”
She smiled. “Sure, but I think we need to practice a little.”
“Are you saying I’m a bad kisser?”
“How would I know? I’ve never kissed anyone else.”
In my mind one sentence wanted out, but I kept my lips closed and didn’t tell her that I hoped she never would kiss anyone else.
CHAPTER 9
Neuro Link
Aubri
The day after the incident with Lucille, Indiana and I behaved differently around each other. Or maybe I was the one who behaved differently.
I had kissed him last night and moaned his name when he gave me oral sex.
It was like my brain needed time to digest what had happened while my heart was acting up and beating faster when Indiana smiled at me.
Confused about what this all meant, I kept busy to avoid any awkward situations between us.
Indiana went for a run while I took a long shower and tried to clear my head. Had he felt something last night or had he just indulged me? The situation with two women had turned him on. I had seen the evidence of that from his erection, which had lasted until Lucille ruined everything with that stupid picture.
Getting out of the shower, I combed my long hair and wondered what would have happened if things hadn’t ended so suddenly. The experience had been novel and exciting, but after my delicious kiss with Indiana, looking down to see Lucille with her hands and mouth on his crotch had bothered me. That’s why I’d walked into the bedroom to get my emotions under control.
Possessiveness ran in my family. My father was impossible when it came to my mom. She couldn’t talk to another man without him getting the wrong idea. I didn’t want to be like that. That’s why France offered such a great opportunity for me to be more relaxed when it came to sex and relationships. I’d seen too many fights between my parents because of their mutual jealousy.
As my fingers braided my hair, my eyes glazed over and my eyebrows wrinkled. What would have happened if Indiana had fucked Lucille? If it made me uncomfortable to see her hand on his crotch then how would I have felt if they had gone all the way? My mind’s eye showed me an image of the two of them kissing and it made my lips turn down and my hands brush my hair faster.
How could I be jealous over Indiana when we were just friends?
You like him as more than a friend.
My heart had been telling me that since the nightclub, but my mind still dismissed that idea. I’d been drinking and the atmosphere in the club had increased my sexual desire. Indiana had simply been the man in that club who came closest to what I preferred in a man.
I stood in the bathroom looking into the mirror as if my reflection would have the answers to where to go from here.
“I’m back.” Indiana’s voice brought me out of my deep thoughts and I quickly dressed and walked out to meet him.
Standing casually, leaning on the kitchen counter, Indiana had a glass of water in his hands and was looking out the windows to the high-rises around us.
“Did you have a good run?”
“Yeah, I went down to the park.” He pointed with his glass to the left side of the large windowpanes. “See between those two buildings?”
I walked over to stand with a hand against the glass. “Yeah, I see it. I wish that big building wasn’t blocking our view.”
“At least we’re above ground and we get to leave this place for work.”
