Page 31 of Battling the Enemy
Before fear could set in, agonizing pain had ripped through my body. From there, the pain had morphed into incredulousness at what my parents had done. Even at such a young age, I knew that what they had done to me was not normal.
It wasn’t love.
But this?
I had been resigned to the fact that I’d eventually end up here with Deke, and as much as I tried to fight it, I wanted Deke. It was the turmoil that was to come that I didn’t want to deal with.
But what frightened me now?
There was no way I would be able to keep Deke’s interest after tonight. I had no clue what to do in bed besides the basic mechanics of sex. I knew the gist of how to give a blowjob. I knew that a guy used his tongue when he went down on a girl. I knew the penis went into the vagina. I knew the mechanics, but I didn’t know how to…inspire passion.
Oh, I knew his dick was hard, but Deke was a healthy, hot-blooded male. For all I knew, that hard dick of his could be for anyone who was sitting on his bed. I wasn’t important to him no matter what bullshit he sprouted. He made that clear when he told me never to question him about Roselyn again. I might…matter, but I wasn’t important.
So, what scared me?
I knew after tonight, my life would change drastically, and not necessarilyforDeke, but because of Deke.
There would no longer be Winston as my safety net because after tonight, a passionless marriage would no longer be enough for me. There would be a shift in my relationship with my parents because I would no longer be a part of their plan. Now, while they neglected me for the most part, the shift would come in the form of their purse strings. I knew this. There was also the fact that I’d no longer be able to live in ignorance. I would know passion. I would know lust. I would know what it feels like to be owned by another human being. I would finally know what I was missing, and I was scared that Deke would take what he could and walk away when there was nothing left for him to take; nothing left for me to give to someone else.
I knew all this, but none of it was going to stop me, anyway.
I lowered my eyes and reached for the waistband of his basketball shorts. I tugged them down and his erection sprang free and bounced against his body. The tinted skin looked painfully stretched tight, and I could feel the heat graze my face, but that was nothing when I took in how big he was.
Even being a virgin, I knew Deke was huge.
I took a deep breath as I wrapped my hand around his dick, and it surprised me how hot it was. I mean, I guess it made sense with all the blood flowing through it, I…just wasn’t expecting it. Deke let out a quiet hiss above me and that gave me the courage to move forward with my decision to give him this.
Give himme.
I leaned forward and there was a drop of pre-cum on the tip, so I decided to start there. I lick the tip and Deke’s hands shot into my hair, holding on tightly. The feeling took me back to the night on the beach and I could feel myself becoming wet with need. I opened my mouth and took Deke to the back of my throat.
Now, while I wasn’t a professional, I knew enough not to use my teeth, and I knew enough that the deeper the better. So, I grabbed the base of his dick and swallowed him down, and I couldn’t believe how turned on I was becoming from doing something that, in theory, should be for his pleasure only.
“Fuck, Lamb,” Deke muttered, “you’re sucking me so good, baby.”
I wasn’t sure if I really was or if he was just saying that to encourage me, but it…helped. I took him as deep as I could, and when I felt him hit the back of my throat, I pulled back. His hands tightened in my hair with each dive down my throat and I realized I was right. Pulling this kind of need out of him felt powerful. Deke was standing over me, but I felt like I had the power here. I felt like I could ask him for anything, and he’d give it as long as I kept sucking his dick.
After a while, with short labored breaths, he warned, “Baby, I’m going to cum if you keep that up.”
Did I want that? Did I want my first time to be so…filthy?
Yes. Yes, I did.
I started moving faster, using my hand to help stimulate the length of him that I couldn’t get into my mouth. Deke was long and thick, and even using my hand, I still couldn’t wrap around him completely. I knew he was going to tear me in half, but I couldn’t bring myself to care. I wanted him. I wanted him so much, I was going to let my first blowjob end with swallowing his seed.
“Lamb,” he breathed. “Delaney, baby? I’m going to cum…”
I held on.
I held on and tightened my grip and my lips around him until he let out a deep moan and shot his orgasm down my throat. I kept my lips firmly wrapped around him as he shot squirt after squirt in my mouth. His hands were fisted in my hair as I swallowed every drop. It was intense. It was exciting. And it was forever.
This was forever.
I will forever remember this first.
I will forever remember this night.
I will forever remember Deke.
