Page 2 of If You Could Only Believe
And what else do you call it when youwanthim to force you?
Does that make me sick?
Does that make me a pervert?
It is a sign of mental instability to fantasize having a man, twice your size, hold you down andmakeyou take him?
Because that’s the only way I can see giving myself to Michael Buchanan. If he left it up to me to decide, I’d run. I turned from him and run as fast as my overweight body would let me.
And I told him so.
I told him I didn’t belong with him. I told him that there was no way I’d be able to get out of my head long enough to enjoy his attentions.
But here we were, in my bedroom, with Michael Buchanan walking towards me with all the promises I didn’t believe in.
Like I said, things like this didn’t happen to people like me.
Chapter 1
Sophia~
I stared at the computer screen and I could feel my anxiety rise with each breath.
Picture that ascent up the first slope of that monstrously huge rollercoaster you got onto only because your best friend bullied you into discarding all common sense. You know the one I’m talking about-the rollercoaster, not the friend.
Those annoyingly, anxiety increasing ticks that remind you that you’re not an engineer, and therefore, have no idea what actually keeps the car wheels attached to the structure.
Tick.
Tick.
Tick.
Tick.
Then, you finally reach that first top arch, and because theme park engineers are sadists, you’re given that one split second to wonder if you’re going to be a laughing theme park goer or a crying lunatic when it’s all over.
It’s Monday morning and reading the company wide email I just clicked open has me feeling like I’m in line to ride that invention of fright. Tuesday will be a tick. Wednesday will be a tick. Thursday will be a tick. And Friday…Friday morning will be that second of pause at the top, while Friday night looks like it’s going to be the fall.
I blinked and blinked again, willing it to disappear, but it wasn’t.
Monday, September 3rd, 2018 10:07:15 am
To: Buchanan Industries (All)
Subject: New Management Development Team
To All Buchanan Industries Employees:
Good Morning Everyone,
In light, of the arrivals of Gabriel Buchanan (Marketing & Clientele) and Michael Buchanan, (Human Resources) Mason Buchanan, CEO & President of Buchanan Industries, has organized a company wide mandatory employee and management event to take place Friday, September 7th, 2018.
The catered event will take place at The Fitzmill Hotel on Lexington Avenue and will begin at approximately 7:00 pm.
All employees are allowed a Plus One for the event and we strongly encourage your attendance.
Anyone unable to attend can contact H.R. with their questions and/or concerns before Friday.
