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Don’t think about her.I scrunched my thoughts down and looked at Nic instead. It was impossible not to think about the last time I had seen him. I remembered the dumpster-groove in the kitchen’s metal door, the way Nic’s eyes had flashed as he faced off with my uncle.Don’t think about Jack.

I had dragged Nic’s lifeless body away from the fire that destroyed my life…Don’t think about the fire. I had gone to help him instead of making sure my mother was safe. I should have checked, but I didn’t. I should have helped her first, but I didn’t.Don’t think about her. He had pulled me away from her white sneakers when I was almost close enough to touch them.

‘Sophie?’ Nic’s body was dipping across the threshold, his fingers digging into the doorframe.

‘What?’

He blinked, surprised by my bluntness. ‘I’m worried about you.’

Now that he was standing across from me, I realized I didn’t want to see him. All our memories were bad ones – I couldn’t remember the good ones, couldn’t pretend his kisses would make all the darkness go away. Everything was too clear now.

‘You don’t have to be a Marino any more,’ he said quietly. ‘Not if you don’t want to be.’

‘I was never a Marino,’ I shot back. ‘You know that.’

He looked away, sheepish. He had thought I lied to him all along – I could see it in his expression.

‘And I sure as hell am not a Marino now,’ I added, hearing the venom in my words.

‘Come back with me,’ he said. ‘We’ll avenge your mother together. We’ll kill them for everything they’ve taken from us. You’ll have your revenge, I promise.’

What a way to comfort someone in the depths of grief – to promise death and destruction – and yet I felt charged by it. This was Nic – there were things he could never give me, empathy he could never really feel, but this,thiswas his world and of all the promises he had ever made and unmade, I knew he would keep this one. And that brought its own set of complications, because as much as he would do this for me, deep down it would always truly be for him.

‘Gino,’ I remembered. ‘They shot Gino.’

Nic’s expression darkened. ‘He’s in hospital. He’s hanging in there.’

‘Oh.’ I nodded, the barest trace of relief rising inside me. A small mercy. ‘Good.’

‘They’ll pay for that too,’ he said, his voice hard.

I looked at him – at every part of him, really, wholly – for the first time. I looked past the cheekbones, the searing eyes and the gentle curve of his lips. I had seen his body come alive, his fingers constricting around throats, his hand wielding a knife, his actions charged with murderous intent.

His T-shirt was creased slightly above his waistline. Even now, in times of mourning, he carried a loaded gun. He was an assassin – he had killed before and he would kill again andhe wouldn’t lose any sleep over it. Nic was raw, heart-thudding passion personified, and he couldn’t measure it out for certain parts of his life and deny the others. He cared about me, sure, but he cared about other things, too. And they were darker, violent things that made up who he really was at his core. He had dumped Sara Marino in the lake. He had carved words of warning into her skin. And here he was, glittering in the duskiness – an angel sprung from hell.

Yes, Iwouldsay something to him; I would say the only thing pushing against my brain. I would say the thing that needed to be said.

The words came out clear and loud. ‘You hesitated.’

‘What?’

‘You didn’t drop your gun.’

‘What are you talking about?’

Carefully, I extracted the memory from That Night. ‘In the diner, when you and Luca came in through the back door, you both raised your guns. I looked inside the barrel of yours as you aimed it with full confidence at my head.’

Comprehension moved through Nic’s features, relaxing them. ‘But I wouldn’t have shot you.’

‘My head was in the way.’

‘My aim is very good.’

‘That’s the wrong answer.’

‘What’s the right answer?’

‘The fact that you don’t know says it all.’