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I remove my finger, stop playing with her clit, and kiss her gently on her temple when she groans her disapproval.
“I hope you learned your lesson, Angel because not only did you shut me out, but you also disappointed me by not giving me a chance to explain.”
“I’m sorry, Sir. I’ll always talk to you if I have a problem.”
“Good girl. That’s all I ask.”
She sighs and lays her head against my chest. I rub my fingertips up and down her bare arm just enjoying the moment. While we both don’t get any satisfaction today, at least she knows she can’t just cut me out and expect me not to react. It doesn’t matter what it’s about. We have to talk if we want this to work.
“Thank you for understanding and not giving up on me.”
I kissed the top of her head. “I’ll never give up on you, Angel.”
11
Cadence
Five Months Later…
It’s been a strange day, and I haven’t decided if I should tell him what I experienced even though I know he’s going to ask how my day went. I just had the strangest feeling someone’s watching me, and I can’t shake it. I thought I saw someone standing across the street staring at me when I went to lunch today. For a split second I thought it was Christian but shook it off as my eyes playing tricks on me. There’s no way in hell it could be him. But the feeling stuck with me the entire day even when I came home. I’m so freaked out even though I stay in a damn high rise, I’ve closed every single blind and drape in the place like someone can really see me.
Brian’s deep frustrated sigh brings me out of my thoughts.
“What’s wrong?” I ask.
“A bunch of shit like always.”
“Lay it on me, maybe I can help.”
“I wish you could, but I have to deal with it on my own. I’ve got myself into it, so I got to get myself out of it.”
The sound of paper rattling filters through the line. Work. Work. Work. The man’s a workaholic, that’s for sure.
“Do you ever relax?” I ask, chuckling.
“Only when I’m with you,” he says without hesitation. I don’t know why his answer warms my heart, but it does.
“How did things go today with you, Angel?” he asks.
I get a tingling in my stomach every time he calls me, Angel. A girlish excitement rises in me like my high school crush has finally acknowledged my existence for the first time.
It’s been amazing how we’ve been able to build a connection separate from our lifestyle. Of course, we still have playtime, but it isn’t every night. Sometimes we just laugh and talk about random stuff.
We care about what’s going on in each other’s lives. And we talk about what’s happening outside of our Dominant/Submissive relationship. It hasn’t been long, but I know he cares for me just as much as I care for him.
“I hope yours went better than mine.” He sighs. “What I wouldn’t do to have you laid out bare before me so I can fuck all the stress away.”
I gasp as at his words. I shouldn’t be surprised at how his words shock me anymore. But his voice and words still do something to me all these months later. Whether he’s laughing or pushing me over the edge into euphoria, for me, it’s a sign that whatever this is between us, it’s real and it’s growing. Even if this relationship would end today, Brian Hamm will stay with me no matter what. And I will stand beside him until the end. He’s helped me beyond measure, and I can’t thank him enough.
“When are we going to make that happen?” I ask.
“Whenever you’re ready,” he says. “And wherever you’re comfortable.”
“I think I’m definitely ready to see you again.”
It’s been a few weeks since we’ve been able to see each other in person. He’s been working a lot. But we’ve been able to keep our nightly calls so that’s better than nothing.
“And I’m ready to see you again too, baby. Now tell me how your day went.”
