Page 22 of Carnal Desire
It’s been almost a week since I’ve talked to Brian. Not that he hasn’t tried to get in touch with me. I’ve been ignoring his calls, texts, and voice calls. I have no desire to talk to him after he lied to me. He wants me to believe what I heard was a not what I thought according to his messages, but I don’t. I know what I heard, and she definitely has to feel very comfortable with him to do that at his office. Not only has he hurt me, but he’s also obliterated any trust I started to have in him.
“I feel so stupid, Laila.” I place the bottle of wine on my coffee table, grab my glass, and take a sip. “I thought what we had was actually leading somewhere. I was starting to actually trust him.”
“Now explain to me again what happened, Cadence because I know Brian, and this doesn’t seem at all like something he’d do.”
I knew it would be hard for to believe Brian did anything wrong because she knows him, but I needed to vent my anger and disappointment to someone even though she may be biased. I’m still amazed I’ve never crossed paths with him., “I know he dated your sister, Laila but people change. He made me believe we would be exclusive and we’re not.”
“Okay, just start from the beginning.”
I sigh. “We were on the phone and I heard him having a conversation with a woman at his office.”
“Probably his secretary,” Laila chimes in.
“Maybe, but definitely someone he’s sleeping with. You could tell by the tone of her voice. She said something about her servicing him and he told her not now. What kind of shit is that? Then a few minutes later she moans and tells him how much she’s missed him. I wasn’t about to stay on the phone any longer after that. I know we haven’t been doing this long but we are supposed to be exclusive.”
“Could you be overreacting because of what you went through with Christian?” she asks.
And that may be a possibility but I’m going to be cautious this time around. I will not be in the same situation I was with Christian. I refuse to be someone else’s fool.
“It may have been something very innocent, Cadence,” she says trying to reason with me.
I roll my eyes huffing. “I know what I heard, Laila. He’s fucking her.”
“Maybe he was before he met you,” Laila says. “Maybe he hadn’t had time to break it off with her.”
“That’s possible but I don’t understand why he just didn’t say something while I was on the phone.”
“Did you give him time to before you jumped to conclusions that he wasn’t living up to his end of the contract?”
I groan when my phone beeps again, letting me know there’s another incoming call. “Goddamn it!” . I’ve lost count of how many times he’s tried to call me or contact me through theCarnal Desireapp, but I’ve been ignoring them all. He can’t expect me to do everything the contract says when he’s not. If he doesn’t want to be exclusive, he just should have said that in the beginning. I wouldn’t have signed the contract but at least I wouldn’t have been lied to.
“Is he calling again?” Laila asks.
“Yes” I groan, “but I don’t what to hear anything he has to say. He wants me to trust him but how can I when he pulled some shit like this.”
“Do you want my opinion?” Laila asks.
“No, but I’m sure you’re going to give it anyway.”
She laughs. “Only because I love you. I’m your friend and I’m going to be honest with you always, Cadence. In this instance, I think you’re wrong. I think you jumped to conclusions.”
“But…” I say but she cuts me off.
“Listen to me then you can respond.”
I huff. “Okay.”
“Like I said, I’ve known Brian for years. Well over two decades. Even though I haven’t been a part of this lifestyle long, I know he takes this very seriously because of the relationship he had with my sister. I really think your judgement is being clouded by your past and I don’t want you to miss out on something special because you are comparing Brian and Christian. There’s no comparison.”
My beeps again and I ignore it. Then there’s pounding on my door.
“Angel!” he shouts. “Open the fucking door!”
“Oh fuck,” I mumble. “What do I do?”
Laila laughs. “Open the door, Cadence.”
“You got until the count of three, Cadence,” he yells pounding on the door again. “And I’m breaking it the fuck down.”
