Page 35 of Carnal Desire
“It’s so good to see you again, Cadence. It’s been a while.”
“It has.”
She turns her attention to Brian. “Mr. Hamm it’s nice to see you again, as well.”
“You too Bethany,” he says, pulling me into his arms. “We’re meeting Elijah and Laila.”
She nods. “Let me just check to make sure I have all your paperwork, and everything is in order,” she says her fingers flying across the keyboard.
Brian kisses the top of my head while we wait for Bethany to make sure our paperwork is in order. It’s like we always have to touch if we’re around one another. Now nervousness is kicking in, but the tiny circles Brian’s thumb is tracing across my skin sends a wave of calm through me.
“Okay! All your paperwork is in order,” Bethany says. “And Elijah and Laila are on the second floor. Welcome back and I hope you enjoy your time. We’re here for your pleasure and your pain. We have all you could desire.”
I wave to Bethany as we leave the receptionist area and Brian escorts me down a dimly lit, narrow corridor. When we reach the industrial metal door with a gold mask etched in it like the black plaque on the outside of the building, I wait for the panic to set in. But it never comes.
“You ready, Angel?” he asks with fire raging in his eyes.
He’s just as excited as I am to experience this again especially with each other.
I take a deep breath and release it. “I’m ready.”
My heart thumps inside my chest with anticipation as Brian pushes the door open. I can’t help but smile.
I’ve missed this.
The smell. The sound. The atmosphere. I’ve missed it all. Being back here is almost like coming home. Like I’m back where I’m supposed to be. Everyone here is just like me. They want to explore their sexuality in a way that may seem a bit odd or even wrong to outsiders. But for the people in this room, we love the act of sex in all it’s different forms. And enjoy being around like-minded people.
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Brian
This is the first time in a long time I’ve actually wanted to come to the club while I’ve been in Chicago. It has nothing to do with Club Desire and everything to do with the fact my appetite changed for what I’m looking for within the lifestyle. Tonight, I believe I might actually enjoy myself especially since this is the first time I’m here with Cadence. With this being her first time back in a few years and our plans with Elijah and Laila, things should be interesting.
“You have permission to speak and to look at me,” I whisper in her ear.
She looks up at me and smiles and it’s like the world just stops turning. Like everything in the fucking universe falls into alignment. Everything is absolutely unconditional with Cadence including my love.
She’s beautiful.
She’s strong.
She’s a survivor.
She’s my everything.
“Thank you, Sir. And thank you for doing this with me.”
“You don’t have to thank me, Angel. I want what’s best for you, always. And I think this is what’s good for you. But are you sure you’re up for it?” I ask as we exit the elevator onto the third floor. “Don’t do this for me but for you.”
I love to watch people fuck. I think she does too, but I also think she’s more of an exhibitionist than she knows. I also know she still has some small hang ups about her scars no matter how much I tell her she’s beautiful and no matter how many times a day she tells herself because of our daily reminder rule.
Of course, Elijah and Laila are aware of them. It was the only way she’d agreed to do this. But neither of them had any worries about it. They know what she’s been through even if they haven’t seen the evidence of the attack.
“I’m a little nervous but I think I need to do this for myself. I have my safe word if I get uncomfortable.”
“Yes, you have your safe word, and make sure you let me know the moment you start to feel uneasy.”
She hasn’t experienced a panic attack with me yet, but we’ve been trying to ease her into things that might cause one like bindings.
