Page 84 of Gift from the Source
Her power was never meant to be bound. It wouldn’t have shocked me in the slightest if her soul found a way to wander across realms before it was supposed to.
I still don’t know if that’s one hundred percent true, but I’d be willing to vow my life on it.
I guess that vow really wouldn’t matter, though…
Today is the day I’m going to the beyond, my boy.
Something I know you already know seeing as you won’t read this letter for many years to come.
I’ve wanted to tell you all my truths for so long. There’s still so many I can’t set free, and I hope by now, you know and understand that. I pray that by now, Caspian, you’ve found some forgiveness in me.
I was never willing to put any of the burden I carried on you. Even if I could have, I never would have.
I’ve said it already, but I’ll reiterate. Your future has always been a blur for me. Many of the pieces I’ve seen have Willow or one of the others within them. Because of that, I will hopelessly assume she’s guided you home.
There’s no doubt in my mind that you’ve been searching the darkness, every crevice of Elementra, every book, scroll, and tome. Maybe by now, you’ve searched within yourself.
I know you’ve been searching for answers you desperately need.
I will give you the few that I can now, then I must go.
Today, the Summum-Master will take my gift, and my death will start a chain of events.
Many truths will begin to surface. There is a surprise at every turn.
I’m both sorry and excited for you.
Earlier I mentioned that Pran and Dillon Gale were the informants who told me where you were. Those two men have suffered unspeakable things. Don’t let the Nexus they belong to sway you into believing they are one and the same.
If you believe the years you’ve had to wait for revenge have been long, my boy, you’re going to be shocked to find out they’ve been planning theirs for over two hundred years.
Give them an opportunity to explain. Please.
They were unlikely allies in my time of need, and they eventually became two of the very, very few friends I would ever be blessed with.
My last secret I can share with you is this…
Our family changed history.
In such a profound way that it had to be rewritten.
Elementra never formally blessed the Vito line.
They didn’t win the Realm Trial.
You’ll find that story where you found this letter.
Protect it, Caspian. Do what’s right by the story you find.
My words could never express what you mean to me, my boy. When my sister found out she was pregnant, both times, I prayed that Elementra didn’t curse either of you with my gift.
She answered that prayer. To an extent.
She may not have given you my gift of sight, but my, did she make a mini me out of you. Every day I looked at you and saw myself. I vowed I’d never crush that. I’d support who you’d grow up to be, no matter what.
Sure, as I said, there were times I beat myself up about that and wished I’d done things differently, but as I continue to spew words across this parchment to avoid what’s to come, my mind changes every second.
There’s nothing about you I would’ve changed, fixed, mended, dimmed down, or anything else. I’m so proud of you, Caspian. I know you’re in a rough place at this time in your life, but I know you’ll overcome it. You’ll beat it.
