Page 45 of Innocent Union
“What if I want to do it, but I’m not sure if you’ll like me?”
Killian rubs his thumbs against my waist, making my skin tingle. “I like you a lot, Mia. I’m very attracted to you. There’s nothing you could do that would make me not like you.”
I let out a fast breath. “I don’t know. I’ve never had sex. What if I’m bad at it?”
He leans in close and presses his forehead to mine. “Then I’ll teach you.”
Standing so close to him, there’s one thing I know for sure I want to experience.
I kiss him before I lose my nerve.
Killian kisses me back straight away. Our lips meld together perfectly, so at least I know that’s one thing that works. This kiss is a lot more passionate than our previous ones. It’s like the dam holding us back has broken now that we’re married. We can just … be together if we want. Which is an incredibly freeing thought.
I gasp when he presses me against the counter, his body flush against mine. Even through his tux, I can feel the ridges and grooves of his muscles. Feeling more confident, I slide my hands up to his shoulders and pull him even closer.
Killian’s hands slap against the counter as he catches his balance.
“Sorry,” I whisper, pulling back slightly.
“You don’t need to be sorry.” He kisses me again before I can even think.
When Killian’s hands slide lower to graze my butt, I feel a fire pass through me that is electric. I’ve felt turned on before, but nothing likethis. This is … what floating feels like. Being so high in the sky, you can’t even imagine coming down.
“I need more,” I admit, my breath coming out heavy.
Killian’s eyes have darkened, which only serves to make that fire within me grow. “Then let’s go upstairs.” He takes my hand and leads us up the stairs and to his bedroom.
My nerves are now a full-grown swarm of butterflies in my stomach, mixing with the simmering fire. I’ve been wanting to feel more adult like my sisters. I am an adult. It’s time I cross the barrier and try something I’ve never done before.
I don’t know how all this will feel exactly, but I know I want to kiss Killian again and again for ever. And if I want to kiss him forever … then I can’t even imagine what sex is like with him.
He pulls me toward the bed. “We can stop whenever you want.”
“I’m not sure I want to stop.”
His smile lights up his face. “If you need to, let me know, But right now, all I can think about is kissing you again.” He grabs my face and presses our lips together.
As we kiss, he lowers me onto the bed. My heart thuds so hard in my chest. It hurts, but I don’t mind. The way Killian is kissing me … he’s making it clear he’s into me. I tell myself to have no doubt, but there’s still some. I’m not sure when that will go away.
Killian reaches behind me and unzips my dress. “Is this ok?”
I nod.
He lowers the bodice of my dress, exposing my lacy white bra. Somehow, his eyes darken even more. This is the first time in my life I’ve ever felt … sexy.
The fire within my core burns brighter.
Killian finishes taking my entire dress off and carefully laying it on the floor. I try not to fidget as he looks me over.
“What about you?” I ask, nodding at his tux. “It would make me feel better to know I’m not the only one half naked here.”
He chuckles as he takes off his jacket. “As you wish.” Soon, he’s standing before me in black briefs that don’t leave anythingto the imagination. The bulge in his underwear speaks to his arousal.
“Do you really find me attractive?” I ask.
Killian leans over me, his glorious body so close to touching mine. “I really do.” He kisses me deeply again.
I clutch his shoulders for support. When Killian takes off my bra, I know this is it. The more we go, the less we’ll likely stop. I may be nervous as all get out, but I want to experience sex for the first time, and I know I want to do it with Killian.
