Page 4 of Leave Before I Love You
Back in my early twenties, I considered going to flight school and getting my pilot’s license a couple of times, but in the end, it seemed counterintuitive to my ultimate desire to be the one doing the skydiving. I still find it interesting, but watching Mario now, I’d be lying if I didn’t admit how complicated and stressful it all looks.
He tries to talk to me a little, but with English being his second language and my only having four years of Spanish in high school, I still struggle to keep up. I have a feeling a lot of it has to do with the Spanish translation of airplane terminology not being at the top of my classes’ priority list.
In the end, we settle for companionable silence and, occasionally, pantomiming with our hands.
I glance back at Avery a couple of times during the first thirty minutes of airtime and then again about fifteen minutes later. She’s fidgeting even more now, and I smirk lightly at the way she mumbles to herself and fusses with her pretty hair.
It’s been over a decade since I made my first jump out of a plane, but I can still remember the tingle in my chest and the flapping in my stomach. Hell, I can even remember the taste of bile as it teased the back of my throat and feel the pinch of my nerves firing in the tips of my fingers.
It goes against nearly all basic human instinct to hurl yourself out of a perfectly good aircraft, but a millisecond into the free fall when you first hit the air, you understand why you did. It’s cathartic and cosmic and out-of-body in a way I’ve made my living selling to people all over the world.
To be untouchable, if even for just a moment, is a feeling that changes you.
Avery isn’t exactly my target audience, but with her relatively narrow worldview and silver-spoon upbringing at the forefront of her every action, I can’t wait to see how the experience changes her when it’s over. It’s an intrinsic lesson in just how small we are in the scale of the world.
Still, I understand completely why she’s nervous, so I move toward her to try to help her settle.
“You doing okay?” I ask, squatting down in front of her and checking the fit of her harness straps myself. They’re tight, but I give another yank on both sides for good measure. Her body jerks, and her already-big hazel eyes widen.
“I cannot freaking believe I’m doing this,” Avery admits, the wild wind and noise of the prop making her voice sound corrugated. “All those injectables in my face, and for what? Plunging toward the earth is going to ruin my structure completely! And the wrinkles! My God.”
I laugh. “Your face will look funny during the free fall, but it’s hardly permanent.” I wink, posing in something akin to Zoolander’sexpression. “Look at me. Fresh as a fucking newborn, and I’ve jumped thousands of times.”
She rolls her eyes, worrying her full bottom lip with her teeth. She’s panicking, not that she’d ever admit it.
“You’re going to be okay. I promise. I’ll take care of you.” I squeeze her knee. “We’ll strap in together, and you won’t even have to do anything but hold on. I’ll handle everything.”
“That’s a hell of a lot of trust to put in you. You know that, right?”
“Of course.” I nod, locking my eyes with hers. “Belief in your jump partner is absolutely crucial. Now, I believe in you, but do you believe in me?”
She snorts. “Do I have a choice?”
“You always have a choice while you’re still planeside. We can fly right back where we came from if you want to.”
She sighs heavily before shaking her head. “No. That won’t be necessary. I…” Her lip nearly curls. “Trustyou.”
I laugh. “Good. I’m looking forward—”
A violent jolt sends the plane plummeting, the sudden drop like an elevator free-falling with no brakes. Avery and I slam into the cabin floor, the impact rattling my bones. Her scream is sharp, panicked, a perfect match for the piercing whine of the wind as the plane tilts sharply downward.
“Shit,” I mutter, trying to make sense of what’s happening. The sound of the wind increases to a loud, high-pitched shriek as the plane takes on an increasingly scary angle, forcing both Avery and me to grab on to any available surface for purchase.
Turning quickly to address the pilot or ask for guidance, I find the reason for the change in altitude and pitch, and a pit of panic takes root in my abdomen, gnawing at the lining of my stomach.
Mario isn’t moving. He’s just slumped over in his seat, and I fight against the g-force to get to my feet.
“Oh my God! What is happening?” Avery screams, scratching the wall behind her as she starts to slide forward. She finally findsthe handle above her head at the backside of the jump door, and I scramble to the front to check on Mario, all control of my movement getting harder and harder with every small step.
He’s folded over, and his now-gray face is lifeless. I shake his shoulder brusquely, but he doesn’t stir, and all I can see out the windshield now is the sputter of the propeller and the ocean down below.Fuck.
Rubbing vigorously at his chest with my knuckles, I try to get a response, but he slumps even farther forward and onto the controls, sending the plane careening at an ear-piercing descent.
Avery’s breathing turns to panicked sobs. “Henry—fix it!”
I check for Mario’s pulse—nothing. I rub at his sternum again with vigorous knuckles—nothing.
“I think Mario’s gone,” I say, the words tasting like lead in my mouth.
