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Holden comes over to my side of the bed and leans over to kiss me quickly. “I’m sure Audrey would love to come over. Try to worry a little less and have a good day. I’ll see you later. Love you.”
“I love you too.”
I watch him disappear into the bathroom, hopeful that today is going to be different. He promised that he would do better when we last argued and so far, he has. Still, I get the feeling that when he walks out the door, one day he isn’t going to come back.
Enough worrying about things that haven’t happened yet, Hannah. Get it together. He is a good man and he took your conversation to heart. He is trying to do better than he did before. Everything is going to be fine.
Holden heads to work a few minutes later while I stare at the ceiling, trying to tell myself that I’m panicking for nothing. As I lay there, I try to focus on my novel.
However, the stress of a massive change to my career combined with the massive shift in my relationship is only making me worry more. I don’t know what I’m going to do with either aspect of my life.
Maybe switching genres right now is a bad idea. Maybe I should just write a standalone spy novel while Holden and I get our lives figured out.
Except, I know that isn’t the answer. I can’t be scared of reaching out with both hands and taking the life I want.
With that in mind, I haul myself out of bed and send Audrey a message, inviting her and Teddy to come over for an afternoon playdate. I try to get some work done before meeting up with Audrey. If nothing else, I can put all this nervous energy to use being productive.
Audrey was right about getting out and getting a little sunlight. She agreed to meet me at the park near our house. The sun is shining overhead and the breeze is warm. I lean back on the park bench, watching Kerri play on the little rocking dinosaur with her doll. She smiles and laughs like she doesn’t have a care in the world.
I cross one leg over the other, smiling as I watch my daughter make friends with another little girl. They take off together to play in the sandbox, holding hands and babbling.
Before I know it, she’s going to be in school and making tons of friends.
My vision blurs slightly with tears. The thought of my baby growing up so fast hits me every now and then. It’s hard to watch her grow up, even though I can’t wait to meet the woman she becomes.
I hope I’m doing a good job teaching that woman.
Chapter Twenty-Four
Holden
I'mreadingthroughanew contract when my annoying ringtone sounded. I sit up and unlock my phone and answer the call.
“Babe, what's up?” I ask as I rub my eyes with my vacant hand.
“Where are you?” Hannah asks with desperation in her voice.
“Here in my office, what happened?” I inquire.
“It’s Kerri,” she replies, her voice breaks off.
“What about her? What happened?” I ask, feeling nervous now.
“I can’t.. I..”
“Calm down. Talk to me,” I encourage her even though I’m getting really worried.
“I can’t find Kerri.”
“What?”
“I took her to the park and I watched her get on a slide. I don’t know how she got lost.” I can hear the tremor in her voice, she is crying.
“Where are you?” I ask, trying to calm her down.
“I’m still here at the park. Audrey is here with me. We are searching for her.”
“How long has she been missing?”
