Page 56 of Until Tomorrow
Must love dogs, intelligent conversation, and be over thirty-five… sure, why not?Maybe that could work. Who knew?
It was guy after guy after guy. No, no, no, no, maybe, no, no, no. Finding a yes seemed like an impossibility. It didn’t help that I didn’t know what I wanted.
It also didn’t help that I was still furiously distracted by the night’s events. I struggled to sort it out. I needed someone to talk to—desperately. And while I honestly didn’t know if he’d be okay with it, I texted Loren.
When you have time tomorrow, I have a question for you.
LOREN: I have time now.
Ah, crap. I honestly didn’t think he’d reply. Not at this hour.
I’m sorry. I had no intention of waking you.
LOREN: I have a baby. I haven’t slept in weeks.
And that was one of many reasons I didn’t want children. I liked my schedule exactly how it was.
Sounds miserable.
LOREN: She’s 1000% worth it. Trust me. When you two have kids, you’ll see.
We don’t want kids, actually. I’m snipped, and she had her tubes tied years ago.
And now to wait for the dreaded response.Most people acted like we were idiots who didn’t know what we wanted whenever we said we weren’t planning to have children. They acted like we’d wake up one morning and completely change our mind—bewitched by the thought of tiny humans and suddenly have to have a football team of them. Wasn’t happening.
LOREN: Good for you, knowing what you want.
LOREN: So, what can I do for you?
When you and Katy first started this lifestyle, did you ever struggle with the idea of her dating?
LOREN: 1) Katy never dated outside of Avery. 2) that defeats the point of polyamory.
Right. I should’ve seen that coming. The whole reason they started was the same reason we were doing it.
LOREN: Jealousy is normal. It’s just a feeling. What you do with it is what matters.
LOREN: You can’t take that shit out on Eva.
I would never.
LOREN: If you’re uncomfortable with this lifestyle, that’s okay, but don’t offer false pretenses to her.
Okay, I wasn’t saying what I wanted to say the right way. Shit. I was a lawyer, for God’s sake. It shouldn’t have been this hard to figure out the right words.
That’s… I’m struggling to say this the right way.
The guy Eva went out with tonight believed he was entitled to sex with her and then insulted her size.
LOREN: I own a construction company with multiple sites right now going up. More than happy to offer a place to bury a body. No one will ever know.
I laughed. That wasn’t the response I expected, but I liked it. I also tossed it into the save-for-later bank in case someone else decided to be an asshole to my wife. It didn’t hurt to have proper resources.
Lol. Thank you, but I don’t think that’ll be necessary.
LOREN: That guy’s a dick.
He is. And it’s not that I’m struggling with her dating. She’s happier figuring herself out. I like that. But I hate the idea of her getting hurt. I’ve done everything I can to protect her. I’m struggling with the idea of her getting hurt every time she goes out there.
