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“That’s okay. I’m here for all of it.”
“I know.” She smiled as I leaned in to kiss her. “I know you’re stressed out about the changes, but are you looking forward to any of this at all?”
“I think once I feel like I’m not going to throw up from the anxiety, I’ll look forward to it more.” I sighed.Damn anxiety.“I know I’m in complete control here, and I think that makes it easier. I don’t know if excited is the right word for how I feel, but I’m not running the other way, either, so that’s a plus. I think right now… I think I just… I think I just need to get over the initial feelings before I can feel anything else.”
“We’ve got this,” Eva promised.
“We’ve got this.”
Chapter 27
Logan
Ispentaweekwith Eva—no work, no chaotic outings, no dating apps, nothing. Just me and her doing our thing at home. It was the recharge I needed and gave me enough courage to go back to the university after work. Amelia’s office was tucked in a corner in the same building where the seminar had taken place. Finding it took work, but I managed to get there before her office hours ended.
I knocked twice, hoping she was in.
“Five minutes!” Amelia called out.
I stepped back from the door and leaned against the wall. I could wait five more minutes. I’d made it this far. As I waited, I took out my phone to read the text I’d gotten on the way over.
Loren’s name on my phone surprised me. Even though we’d exchanged numbers, I hadn’t anticipated him reaching out. Granted, outside of Elliot, I didn’t have a lot of casual friendships.
LOREN: Feel any better after talking to her?
I think so, yes.
LOREN: Good. Just keep talking. It’s funny how that’s the key to making progress, and people don’t realize that.
LOREN: It’s not my place, but I’m here if you need someone to talk to who gets it.
Honestly, talking things out with Loren wasn’t an option I’d considered. I didn’t know him well enough—or at all, really. But I knew his story, and I told myself that was all I needed to bridge that gap. All friendships started somewhere, right?
Did you feel like a wreck at the start? Or during? Or… I don’t know what I’m trying to say here.
LOREN: Absolutely. To have emotions is to be human.
How did you deal with them?
LOREN: I got a damn good therapist.
LOREN: I highly recommend you do the same. Some shit just needs extra help to be sorted out.
LOREN: Don’t make Eva your therapist.
That was the very last thing I wanted to do to my marriage. I’d already caused enough friction by jumping the gun on a divorce and not talking to her first. While I knew that it had probably worked out for the better this way, I wasn’t an idiot enough to tempt fate again.
That’s the plan.
LOREN: Don’t just make a plan. Execute the plan too.
I am.
LOREN: Good. We are all about that action.
Thank you.
LOREN: You don’t have to thank me.
