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At the time, I thought about my family, my twin, and the time I came closer than I ever want to losing him.
But now as I stand here, all I can think about is Ivy.
Rather, I start to think about what it would feel like to lose her. For our story to end before its truly ever began, just like this character.
The heaviness in my chest constricts my breathing. I barely hear Michael call ‘action.’ But as soon as he does, I’m in thescene. Something deeper than my conscious memory takes over as I verbalize my lines.
It’s almost as if my body is on autopilot and I’m watching myself from a distance. There’s a connectedness between my physical body and the deeper, emotional consciousness that’s carrying this scene.
Before I know it, Michael calls cut.
A silence falls around me.
Slowly, I look toward the other actors and crew standing still watching. I spot one of the camera women quickly wiping away a tear.
My forehead wrinkles in concern.
I turn to Michael.
“Should we run it again?”
He doesn’t answer at first. But then he shakes his head with a deliberate slowness. “No. No, I don’t think we need to run that one again.”
There’s something in his voice.
Pride?
Satisfaction?
Whatever it is, it lets me know that I just nailed this scene.
And while I still am not one to actively seek out others approval, I am damn proud of delivering.
CHAPTER 25
Ivy
“Holy shit! Did you see that?” Lillian blurts out as we enter the closet. “I’ve got goosebumps from watching Andreas out there.”
I hold out my arm, displaying my goosebumps. “You’re not alone. That was incredible,” I say in awe of Andreas’ performance.
Once the director called ‘cut’ I wanted so badly to run up to him, throw my arms around him, and tell him what an amazing job he just did.
But I couldn’t.
“I knew he was a good actor,” Lillian continues. “Even on that teen series, he often had some killer scenes.”
I nod in agreement. There are a few blog posts or reviews I’ve read about how Andreas turned a role which could’ve easily been a typical, teen throw away role and turned it into one of the more iconic roles of the past few years for a younger generation.
“But I wasn’t expecting what we just saw,” Lillian says. “I mean, you might be too young to know what I’m referring to, but he reminds me of a young Leonard DiCaprio. Not in looks, Andreas is more handsome in my opinion. But in range.”
“He’s amazing,” I say, still in awe of the performance we just watched.
“Honestly, I’ve been on a lot of sets, and I don’t say this lightly, but I wouldn’t be surprised if this film puts him in the running for an academy award.”
I gasp. “You think so?”
Lillian nods. “I’m not a critic myself but I’ve been around for a while. But just don’t say that out loud. It’s bad luck to bring that sort of thing up even before the movie is finished filming.”
