Page 12 of Tempting the Goalie
“I do, I can’t erase that video from my mind,” she says.
I rub at my eyes in frustration. Feeling too many things. I want my best friend, and I won’t tell her that because I will loseher, and nothing is worth losing her. “I don’t know what you want to hear.”
“The truth,” she states.
“Fine,” I counter, frustrated. “If you must know, ever since I came out to Riverside, I’ve had girls falling all over me. That’s how it is on the hockey team. I indulged the lifestyle because, why not?”
“Did none of those girls ever arouse feelings inside you that made you think you’d want to settle down in a relationship with one of them?” she asks.
“No, I never felt like that,” I say. I’ve only ever wanted her, and she is more off-limits than the Mona Lisa. “The lifestyle got boring for me. It all felt like the same old until I started to experiment. There, are you happy? Now you know how messed up my head is.”
“There’s nothing wrong with wanting more,” she says, surprising the hell out of me. “I always wanted more too. Even when I was with West. Things didn’t feel exactly right. I couldn’t you know. . .” She swallows hard.
“Orgasm,” I deadpan.
She nods. “But it was more than that. There wasn’t an emotional connection, and I wanted more of it. I didn’t understand how I could feel so close to you without having sex and feel so far away from him while I gave him a piece of myself.”
The way her brown eyes bore into me with such naïvete, and honesty makes my heart twist. “We’ve been through a lot together, Mon coeur, and that creep wasn’t right for you.”
“Those girls you were with weren’t for you,” she counters. “That’s why you didn’t feel anything. It doesn’t mean you’re broken. You have the biggest heart I know. It’s perfect and pure.”
I laugh. “You still think that after watching the video?”
She pinches her lips. “In that video I saw a man scared to feel. That’s why you want more than one girl. It’s a distraction for you, isn’t it? A way not to give your heart to one girl.”
“You have my heart, Mon coeur. That’s all I have to give,” I counter.
“You’re so frustrating,” she growls.
“C’est la vie.” I shrug.That’s life. “Let’s eat those sandwiches.”
We sit quietly and eat, watching the water. The cool wind whips at our cheeks but it is still nice to be out here and enjoy the peace and quiet.
“This is delicious. It tastes like home,” she says. Every time I’m with her it feels like home.
“It does,” I agree.
We enjoy our sandwiches and head back to campus.
“I hope Elyna isn’t going to drive your brothers crazy,” I note since they agreed to take her to work.
“She’ll be fine. Have some faith. She’s changed a lot since Braden was born,” she notes.
“Maybe a little,” I say. “She’s still a handful though.”
“My brothers know what they’re getting themselves into. Don’t worry about them. Besides, she needs the help.”
“She does, and I appreciate your family’s support.”
“We’re here for each other,” she replies. “Remember that, Luc. I’ll happily pretend to be your girlfriend, and I won’t pressure you into teaching me sexual things. I get that you aren’t attracted to me in that way,” she says as I pull up to the house she shares with other students off campus.
Her words make me choke on my own saliva. “My reasons for not wanting to teach you have nothing to do with attraction. I’ve been attracted to you ever since I learned about the opposite sex. I just know from experience that sex ruins friendships. I will never do anything to ruin us.”
“See, that’s why you should be my teacher because you care enough not to screw anything up, and now that I know how well hung you are, I can’t stop thinking about it. I always figured, considering…” She bites into her lower lip.
She wants to kill me. Dead. My eyes narrow to slits.
“What? It’s not like I haven’t seen you in a pair of boxers. Now my predictions have been confirmed,” she states, as if it’s no big deal for her to be analyzing my dick.
