Page 22 of Enzo
Pulling out my phone, I send Enzo a message, updating him on the situation. I feel bad I have to spend the night away from him, but it’s nothing we haven’t been through before. Working for the Amatos, both of us know how to prioritize when shit hits the fan. Except it’s never been when we’ve needed each other like we do now.
I wouldn’t trade my job for the world, but I hate needing to be away from the man I love when he needs me. Or…maybe I need him more? I’m not sure at this point. Everything’s happened so fast over the last few weeks that I’m not sure whether I’m projecting my own fears onto Enzo or not.
Maybe this new schedule of having to stay with De Luca will be good for us. Give us space and clarity. Because it wasn’t just Enzo’s life that got turned upside down, but mine too. I just haven’t had the time to admit that.
No, I’m not the one who lost a limb, but it was my loved one who went through something so traumatic. It was his blood I had to wash off my skin, his pain I had to see when he woke up from surgery and understood that a part of him was gone.
So…as much as this is going to suck, it’s a reality check I needed, to remind myself my life doesn’t revolve around Enzo, even if it’s felt like it up to this point.
Fuck, maybe I need more sleep than I thought.It’s really the only explanation for my tumbling thoughts.
Lying down on the cot, I pull the thin blanket over myself just as my phone buzzes.
Looking at the screen, I smile at the picture Enzo sent of himself lying in his hospital bed, golden brown eyes shining and negating the exaggerated pout on his gorgeous mouth.
KAIL
Love you
ENZO
Love you too. Don’t work too hard trying to save that fucker’s life
I laugh.
KAIL
Be nice. Text me if you need me
ENZO
You too. Night, darlin’
KAIL
Goodnight
Staring at his picture, I sigh, and then I hold the phone close to my chest as my eyes shut and I imagine the day I get to hold my love in our own bed again.
Doc’s sitting room is full to the brim with romance books because the guy has an addiction and refuses to buy an e-reader or read on his tablet, so the shelves are bursting at the seams. A lot of the books in the library at the Amato Family main house are his as well as far as I’m aware.
Sitting on the sofa, I hold the book I grabbed off the shelf in my lap. I don’t have anything against reading, it’s simply not my thing, and Doc’s tastes are…well, I’m not surprised to discover he’s apparently very into gay romance, but it’s definitely not my thing. Not that I have an issue with it, I’m not a fucking hypocrite or anything, but I’d rather spend time with my own boyfriend than reading about two or more fictional ones.
I’m saved from reading about how a water mage and an earth mage get together when Jane, the nurse who is babysitting me when Kail can’t, steps into the room.
“The Boss is here to see you,” she says, looking rather nervous for me.
“Send him in. Thank you.”
Jane is quick to disappear after leading Cristian into the sitting room, and I allow myself to find the humor in it. Jane is one of the clinic nurses, so her exposure to the main Family is non-existent, as Doc has Kail, Rose, and now Soren on his elite team that cares for Cristian Amato and his inner circle.
As Cristian steps into the sitting room, I sit up straighter in my spot on the sofa, but there’s not much I can do about my appearance. Kail helped shave both my head and my face yesterday, and I’m wearing clean sweats with a T-shirt, but it’s nothing like the polished, professional look I sported for so long.
“Enzo, I hear you haven’t been taking care of yourself,” the Boss says without any preamble.
I grimace, but any argument I have is thwarted by a perfectly raised black eyebrow. Cristian stares at me with onyx eyes that seem to sear into my soul, and it’s all I can do not to squirm.
The crushing feeling of disappointment weighs down on my chest. Knowing this man trusted me with the safety and well-being of his son, and yet here I am, letting him down… Fuck, there’s no greater shame for a bodyguard, especially one such as me.
