Page 11 of Straight, No Chaser
Smart man. I like his style. Never be at the mercy of anyone else. Except that I want her at my mercy. Every second of every minute of every fucking day. So this is a rule I'm going to help her fucking break. Now.
Fuck me if I know how. My mind races trying to think of something that will make her stay. Make herwantto stay. Seconds tick by, and she sighs. Accepting her fate. Our fate. Until a singsong voice calling from the family room reminds me of the one person she can't resist.
"Nanny for me full time."
"What?" Her gorgeous face scrunches in confusion before she blows out a shaky sigh. "I can't. What about my family? And school?"
I drop back on the edge of my desk, the righting of power softening my pulsing muscles. The world is back under my control. Although it pisses the hell out of me that I lost it for a few seconds. How does this tiny woman own me so fucking much? "Move in here to save rent. Take care of Eli, except for classes and homework of course. I'll pay for your school in return for being my full-time employee."
Then Girlfriend. Fiancé. Wife. A smug ass smile must curl my lips, but I can't help myself. Yeah, I'm a fucking bastard for taking advantage of her father's mistakes and her soft-hearted guilt. But that's why I am where I am. I take what I want regardless of who it hurts. Your problem is my opportunity.
Some of her worry evaporates too. The light returns to her eyes that this possibility exists. That I hold what she needs. Whether she likes it or not. "It's perfect, don't you think?"
Can't push too hard and spook her. Just reel her in with so much sense that she can't argue. "No rent. No tuition. No bills." I tick the benefits off on my fingers, focusing on the practicality rather than thinking about her sweet mouth on my cock. "Send your salary to your family. They’re happy. Eli's happy. I'm happy."
Actually, I'm fucking thrilled. A hint of a smile brightens her face. Fucking sold. She's in.
My world.
My clutches.
My bed.
Fuck, I have to hold back a groan thinking of her bared to me and screaming my name.
"Okay, thank you." Her head nods. Slow at first, then deep and long with final acceptance. Her movement mimicking her heart, her body softening and the stunning grin glows in full force now. "Thank you so much."
"The pleasure is all mine."
And, yours too, very soon baby girl.
"My Dad's going to be so relieved. He was really upset when he thought I was going to have to drop out of school."
An impulsive hug stirs my cold heart. More worried about her father than herself. Grateful that he's protected rather than focusing on her own loss. Which shouldn't be a fucking surprise at all to me.
My arms curl around her, drawing her tighter against my chest. Welcoming the veracity of her touch. The innocence of her emotion that I so rarely experience. I hold her. Longer than necessary. Way beyond awkward. Unwilling to lose her honest affection.
Soft breath blows against my neck warming my skin. Her long hair rustling against my dress shirt. Her delicate body sheathing mine.
Like Rachael.
Too much of a reminder of the mistakes I've made. Too much of a reminder of the monster I really am. That even this innocent angel can't save.
Suffocating me with her appreciation, I untangle myself from her gentle grip. Her arms flinch from me pushing them down. Embarrassment reddening her fallen face. Which is even worse than her impact on me.
"I guess I better go call my family." She steps backward, a quick glance before she stares at the carpet again. "Thank you Luciano."
She scurries away, confusion lining her face. Just like my own fucking fucked up head.
Damn, I'm such a fucking psycho. I want her so fucking bad. To really love her and let her love me. But I can't. This is for Eli. And easy pussy. That's it. That's all it can ever be.
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Chapter Five
Eli digsin a box bigger than himself, and I have to drag him out by his calves before he topples inside. "Hold up little man. I'll help you."
Huge giggles overtake his small body when he twists around with royal blue fabric squashed in his hand. He swings a thong covered with white stars toward Molly. Fuck me if there's even a little red bow right in the middle. A fucking present I'm going to soon unwrap.
