Page 26 of Grave Misgivings
Earth won’t keep me on the ground
My heart wants to fly beyond its cage
I want to scream but I can’t make a sound
Because every time you look at me, baby, I know I’m Hellbound.”
I pull up to my house, the sun lighting up the sky in shades of ochre and violet, casting a golden glow on my memories.
I set about to making myself something to eat instead of ordering out, if only because cooking usually helps keep me busy enough my thoughts won’t wander.
I glance at the clock as I chop some avocado for my burrito bowl, noting it’s nearing seven.
He hasn’t called.
And I doubt he’s going to.
Once I’m finished with my chopping, I turn on my Spotify and play some fast-paced emo music. I get undressed, grab a beer, and relax on my couch with my laptop, my phone on the cushion next to me.
I scroll through social media absentmindedly, stopping when I come across an article shared in Vanity Fair from last month featuring the musicians from thePillars Of Rocktour.
Geo looks up at me from the photo in the post, alongside his label mates—Felix Heart,Mage Of Mercy, andHeart Killer.
I stop, my fingers hovering over the group photo. He looks so different now than the man I remember.
Gone are the cute thick glasses and the messy blond-brown hair, that boyish smile.
But his eyes are the same.
Deep, rich amber eyes that pull me in like a magnet.
I click through the photos, until I get to his solo set, because I truly am a glutton for punishment.
I swallow as my fingers touch the screen.
He stands before me, those perfect hands on his hips. Decked out in bracelets, and a familiar shiny, silver ring, somehow, they look hotter. If that’s possible.
My gaze travels across his torso, noting the definition of his hips. His fuckingsix packbeneath his ink.
A giant black cross that covers his chest and torso.
My gaze travels down to his tapered waist, to his tight black, ripped jeans and bare feet.
I stopped looking up Geo nine years ago, because I didn’t want to be reminded of what was one of the worst days of my life, and my first real heartbreak.
I didn’t want to see him, because it hurt to look at him.
But now...
Now, I can’t take my eyes off of him.
My cock twitches in my boxers, and I suck in a heavy breath.
I always thought Geo was attractive, but now...
It’s like he truly went fromHeaven SenttoHellbound.
I slip my hand beneath my waistband, if only to adjust my cock, and I notice a bead of wetness pebbling my cockhead.
