Page 121 of Playing With Secrets
My brows pinch together. “I need a minute to think about how I want to do this.”
“Take your time. We’ve got all night.”
My heart pounds against my ribs as I try to find the right words to start this.
“Okay, here it goes. When I’m with you, the darkness falls away. My insides turn into rainbows and crazy shit like that. I’m some child thinking about presents and skipping down the street. I’m completely out of control around you.”
“Rainbows and presents?” She smirks at my ridiculous start.
“I just wanted you to know where I’m coming from. Ittook me forever to tell you I love you and when I did, it came out of my mouth unexpectedly.”
“You didn’t want me to know?”
She moves her hair over one shoulder. Her neck is on full display. Like a moth to a flame, I lean into her and kiss up her neck until I reach the space behind her ear.
“You drive me insane.” I suck and nibble on her skin.
She sinks into me. “Jami, you doing that makes me want to push you over and take you right now.”
I move to her mouth and find her pouty lips parted and waiting. I dive into her and get lost in her touch.
There are more important things I should do before this happens, but she’s like a drug I can’t give up. I’m an addict when it comes to her.
She runs her hands along my arms and makes her way behind my neck, tickling my skin with her long nails. Our tongues thrash and explore as I gently push her over and climb on top of her.
My conscience keeps pointing out we really should talk first, but I might not get this chance again if we do. It’s selfish, but I need something to get me through exposing all of my deceit.
Her arms go around my shoulders as I kiss near her ear. “I love you, Dori.”
“I love you too, Jami.” Chill bumps appear over her skin.
I smile, seeing her reaction to me. Full of desire, I’m about to burst out of my body.
“Do my kisses affect you?” I press my lips against her pulse point.
“You know they do,” she breathes.
“I want you, so if you have any doubts about where this leads, stop me now.”
“I don’t want you to stop. This is something I’ve wanted for a long time. You know that.” She pushes on my chest to give her space.
I sit back on my knees, and with passion-filled eyes, I take her in. “If this happens, then I’m assuming we’re together. Even if we can’t be loud and proud about it until things settle. If we do this tonight, you’re committing to being with me and no one else.”
She nods, and her gaze locks with mine. “I know.”
“And you’re okay with that?”
“I am.” She pushes up and takes my hands.
“You’re positive?”
“Yes. I’ve never put you first and I want to now. You know I’ve got things to work out, but knowing you’re waiting for me at the end of the day is enough to show me how serious you are about this.”
“I am. That’s why I want you to be sure. I know you need to figure out things with Hunter, but I trust you’ll end it with him for good after this. If we do this and you push me away again, it’ll be the last time you do.”
“I understand what you’re saying. After the last couple of days, I realize I want this more than anything.”
My chest fills with love, and my lips curl up. “I’ve waited so long to hear you say that.”
