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She looks at me, rubbing one arm.
“That means kiss Josh?” I ask.
“I had to think fast, Josh. She likes anything that breathes, and that includes you. I could make her jealous.” she says, sounding weary now.
Her eyes grow dark and sad.
“Don’t be mad at me…”
“Are you not grossed out by me? Even a little? This isn’t bizarre to you?”
I was seeking out a way to change her mind. This could go wrong in so many ways. I knew it was a long shot, though, if all she cared about was me being mad. I don’t think we can ever be normal now. It might be too late.
“Josh, you’renotgross. Who told you that?”
“Uh,you. All of our lives?” I look around, confused now.
“Okay, well, I take it back. You’re hot, so what? I assumed you knew that. Why would I make your head bigger than what it is?” she scoffs.
“Oh, shut up.” I squint, shaking my head.
“Make. Me.” she pokes me twice with each word.
I stare at her small fingers.
“Exactly. So are you doing this with me, or not? Just until your dad’s campaign is over? My point will be proved by then.
I swear.” she grips my shark tooth necklace.
Slowly, she brings my face closer. My eyes fall to her lips, watching them move.
“Please?” she bites her lip softly.
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She knew what she was doing. Ilikedwhat she was doing. I feelguiltyliking it so much.
“Paisley…” I lick my lips, “I respect you so much. You and I—I’m just not in favor of messing up us up. I just got you back.”
“I promise I’ll never ask you for a favor again. You’re theonlyman I trust, Joshua.”
Lord, please grant me the strength.
“Alright, fine—okay. But the minute I’m uncomfortable, I’m backing out.” I say, straightening my posture.
She wraps her arms around my torso, kissing my jawline.
“Deal, whatever, I love you.” she squeezes me.
Sighing, I wrap my arms around her small frame.
“Deal.”
I am a goddamned goner.
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