Page 26 of Encircled in Darkness
“No one ever wanted me. Not like that.” I rationalized and he smiled sadly at me. “I’m sorry.”
I needed him to forgive me for my stupid lapse in judgement. I had reverted to a habit from Victor, and James didn’t deserve my shame and self-loathing. He was too good of a man to meet the darkness that existed inside me.
“No one ever wanted me that way either.” His words had my eyes locking with his. “No one ever missed me when I was gone. No one ever cared enough to try.”
“I want to try.”
I slowly brought my hand to his cheek and he leaned into the embrace as he brushed his hand down my naked chest. His whispered touches had my need for him growing and he cupped a heavy breast in each hand. My breathing grew rapid as his thumb and forefinger rolled my pebbled nipples with a gentle caress.
I closed my eyes and my head thumped against the wall as James twisted my nipples, the pain and pleasure shooting to my aching pussy. Groaning into the room, James leaned in and his soft lips pressed against mine. He licked the seam of my lips and I opened my mouth as he released one throbbing nipple with a tug.
“Are you wet for me, Amaya?” he whispered his forehead against mine as his free hand slowly moved down my trembling stomach.
“Yes.” I whined into the room and he moved away from me.
A chill broke across my body and I looked at him with confusion. I could see his rigid cock pressing against his jeans and I wanted to fall to my knees and worship him. He turned and sat down in the chair against the window, adjusting his thickness as he patted his leg. I walked to my clothes and he shook his head.
“I want you naked.” He winked and I smiled softly.
Climbing onto his lap, he placed one hand against my back and the other on my knees. I looked at him and saw how tired he looked. His brow furrowed and his fingers pressed into my skin as he spoke.
“Let me start by saying, I’m sorry I didn’t let you know I was leaving. I can see how you might have misconstrued waking up alone and for that, I’m sorry.” I nodded and he moved his hand up my leg and across my hip, avoiding my aching core. “Today is the last time you compare me to Victor.” He spat his name out like a poison.
Tears flooded my eyes and he reached up, wiping my cheeks as they spilled over. “I...” blowing out a breath, I tried again. “I shouldn’t have doubted you, not after you saved me, but I listened to the little voice in my head.”
“What did it say?” he curiously asked, his head tilted to the side.
“That I was a whore and you got what you wanted from me.” My head hung down in shame and with a strong finger, he lifted my chin.
Deep green eyes met mine and the fire inside was raging as he brough his hand to my cheek and cupped my face. Placing a chaste kiss against my lips, he licked the salty tears from my mouth.
“I never saw you as a whore. I still don’t.” I saw truth in his eyes. “You have to start to see yourself the way I do. As a special flower that needs to be sheltered and protected so that when you bloom, the world can revel in your beauty.”
“You don’t even know me. How can you say that?” I wanted his words to be true, but the voice was whispering ‘pretty words, nothing more.’
“I know enough to know the real you. Time will give us the rest.”
I didn’t fully understand, but I was willing to take a leap of faith.
“Can I ask you something?” he asked, and I exhaled. He knew the worst of me,mostly, so I could be honest with him without the fear of him uncovering secrets.
Nodding, he proceeded. “How much do you know about me? I know you must have looked me up online, so I’m curious to know what you found out.”
“You are half owner of Callahan Cyber Security with your brother, Devlin Callahan. You designed some genius program to catch criminals and sold it to the government for a lot of money.”
That was the extent of my knowledge of James Flannery, except every time I was in trouble, he came riding in to save me.
“You understand I have the capabilities to find things out about people?” I nodded and he continued. “So, I know enough about you to know you’re amazing.”
I smiled at him, staring deep into his clear green eyes, and the darkness inside me stirred. My stomach chose that moment to grumble and he chuckled before standing from the chair with me in his arms. Walking to the kitchen, he sat me on my feet and retrieved my discarded clothes.
“Lift your arms.” He instructed softly and I complied. He tugged my tank top over my head and then bent down to the floor. “Foot.” Lifting one leg, then the other, he pulled my tiny shorts until they covered my modesty. His eyes remained locked on mine as he dressed me with reverence.
Having this handsome man kneeling at my feet, showing his admiration for me, had my heart skipping a beat. I had boyfriends and lovers in the past, but there wasn’t anything close to tenderness there. What James was hinting at was more. So much more and I was giddy at the thought of being his.
Walking to the fridge, he opened it and pulled out eggs, cheese, red peppers, and butter. He glanced over his shoulder and smiled. “Have a seat and I’ll cook us something. I can explain a little more about me after we eat.” he sat the ingredients on the small counter and gave me his full attention. “Then, I’m going to fuck you until you explode on my cock” With a smirk and a wink, he started prepping our omelets.
Stifling a groan, I watched as he started prepping our food. He seemed to know where everything was in my kitchen, but I shrugged it off as I watched this sexy man cook my meal. Quickly, he plated one large omelet as I leaned against the counter and drank another cup of coffee.
