Page 18 of The Soul that Redeems Me
I watched him take the first bite, hoping I made the sauce right and when his face lit up, I knew I’d finally cooked something not only edible, but tasty. After a pot burning incident a few years ago, Andrew had taken over the cooking duties and had taught me only the basics of preparing a meal. It felt nice to be able to cook a meal for the man I love and have him enjoy it.
Yes, I loved Josh.
No, I hadn’t told him yet.
A small amount of fear kept me from blurting the words out to him, worried he would leave and shatter my fragile heart, or maybe that he didn’t feel the same way. After we ate, he cleaned up the kitchen, explaining that I cooked, so he cleaned. He actually just loaded the dishwasher but it was the thought that counted.
We made our way into the living room and settled into our normal evening. Jake curled up against me and me curled against Josh. The proximity of his body to mine was causing my brain to swim with naughty thoughts and my fear to recede. Josh was the most trustworthy person I knew and he would never push me past what I was comfortable with.
I allowed my hand to slowly run his right pectoral muscle, the feeling of his strength evident in his defined muscles. He looked down on me with lust in his eyes and raised his eyebrow at me, a questioning look on his face. I took the remote off the ottoman and muted the TV, not wanting the auditory distraction.
Jake, sensing something was different, jumped off the couch and made his way into the back of the apartment to take a nap on one of our beds. I stood up and moved in front of Josh, willing myself to take the next step with him.
I place one knee outside of his strong legs and gently grabbed his shoulders as I lowered myself, straddling his lap, his growing arousal evident through his sweatpants. I wanted to sit on his lap directly but was shy as to what to do next.
“Is there something you want, Emily?” Josh asked, as he slowly put his hands on my hips and raised his feet to rest on the ottoman, giving me something to lean against as he stared into my eyes.
In a soft voice, I responded, “I want you to touch me, Josh.”
His eyes grew darker and I saw his erection twitch in his pants, not knowing they could do that. My inexperience was evident to me, and I hoped I didn’t make a fool of myself with him. I wanted to be with him and I knew we needed small steps to get me to the point I could actually have sex.
His gruff voice breaking through the lust swirling around us. “Where do you want me to touch you, baby?”
Hoping my hands weren’t shaking, I gently grabbed his hands and placed them on my breasts, my decision to go without a bra crystal clear at my hard nipples under his warm palms. He gently squeezed my aching breasts and a groan broke free of me, the feeling of his hands on me too much to keep the sounds contained.
I stared into his eyes as he caressed me and I allowed the sensations to overtake me. My body was warming up with each stroke of his large hands and my panties were starting to get wet, my clit throbbing with each beat of my heart.
Josh gently plucked at my hard nipples as he leaned toward me and took my mouth in a punishing kiss. I slid up his legs until his hardness was under my soaked panties and I felt myself giving a small undulation against the monster erection he had hidden in his pants. He slowly pulled back, never taking his hands off my engorged breasts as he asked me, “Is there any place else you want me to touch you?” he asked, as he slightly flexed his hips, causing starbursts to blossom in my vision.
The pleasure was outweighing my initial reservations and now I had to decide how far I was willing to take this tonight.
“Not yet…is that okay?” A small tremor in my voice betrayed my nervousness.
Placing a gentle kiss on my lips, he pulled back and explained, “Its more than okay. Is what we’re doing too much? You tell me and it all stops. No matter what, I’ll stop.” He sounded like he needed as much reassurance as I did.
“I trust you. Right now, I don’t want you to stop.” I said as leaned in and kissed him, rocking my core against his hard length. I don’t know where my new-found confidence was coming from but the feelings of his hands on my body was causing me to burn from the inside, my body heating up, my desire growing.
Josh moved his kisses across my face and down my jaw, finding a spot below my ear that had me gasping and rocking faster against his enormous cock. For each of my movements, Josh moved with me, both of us clothed as we seek pleasure from each other. His hands continued their ministration on my heavy breasts, his fingers occasionally plucking my nipples, sending a zing to my clit.
I leaned into him and whispered into his ear, “Will you make me cum, Josh?” feeling bolder and for the first time in my life, sexy and wanted.
A groan was his response as he grabbed my hips and began to grind me against his cock, the feeling of something harder than him rubbing against me causing lightning to ignite in my veins. I reached up and began to rub my breasts, as we kept rocking against each other, seeking release.
Faster and faster we ground against each other, our breath intermingling as I found myself lost in his eyes. I allowed myself to stay in the moment, not allowing any of the past thoughts to seep in and ruin what we were experiencing with each other.
Our breathing increased as we caressed and undulated against each other, the feeling of his strong fingers gripping my hips, helping move me back and forth as he rocked his hips against my quivering center. The tingling feeling that started in my belly kept growing, and I was unsure of what was happening until I erupted into a glorious orgasm that stole my breath away, lightning erupting throughout my body before I floated slowly back to earth. I felt his movement sputter a few times then he groaned out his release into the empty apartment, causing a feeling of peace to overtake me.
I found myself pulled into a huge hug as my heartbeat came back to normal and I relaxed into his embrace. I’d never felt more alive and safer in my entire life and it was all because of the amazing man who decided that I was worthy of his love.
