I felt tingles, signaling Xander was back. I’d been sobbing so loud; I didn’t even hear them pop in. I should’ve splashed water on my face. I couldn’t stop crying though. I was messed up from that night. Xander deserved better.
I didn’t even realize Sierra had taken us outside until Xander popped us inside. He rocked me back and forth until finally the darkness welcomed me. I was more than willing to take a break from the constant string of thoughts.
Thankfully, I didn’t dream. I did see a flash of the white wolf before my eyes again. I woke up breathing hard. Arms instantly encircled me. Xander whispered in my ear, “Shh, I’ve got you Lovebug.” I was losing my mind seeing white wolves and my family dying.
I turned around and saw his worried eyes. It hit me that I really needed to brush my teeth. He quirked an eyebrow but said nothing as I got up and ran into the bathroom. I washed my face and brushed my teeth. I closed the door and quickly chucked my clothes off and grabbed his hoodie off the floor.
I walked back out and got back under the covers with him. He snapped us food to eat in bed. He snapped it all away when we were done. He nuzzled my neck for several minutes. He asked, “Do you want to talk about it?” I shook my head admitting, “No, but we will.”
Xander sighed, “When I get back from my mission? Or now?” I muttered, “Your mission.” Xander tilted my chin up saying, “You can tell me anything.” I whispered, “I know. I should’ve… done things differently.”
Xander snorted, “I would prefer you not drink multiple bottles of vodka and cry, but you’re an adult. Those are your choices to make.” I rolled my eyes muttering, “I didn’t mean… I meant back then. I mean... that doesn’t make sense to you….yet but it will.” The look on his face said I was right.
I continued, “I swear I’ll explain it all one day… even soon. When you get back. Or… if… Well, is there any chance you want to just… meet in the middle of Black Mountain and Black Path and keep living in the bubble?” Xander kissed me without answering.
He pulled back then said, “No, I will not live a half-life with you like that. That would suggest I’d want to hide you, when I want to show you off to everyone because I’m proud you’re mine. We are meant to be in Black Mountain.”
“Besides, I won’t have you with those Black Path assholes for a moment longer than necessary. I know they are truly and utterly awful. They also hate me and my family. In fact, I’d like you to consider staying in the Hackura realm while I’m on my mission.”
He had no idea how much I’d love to. Sadly, I needed to challenge Jean for Sierra to be able to leave and be with Phil. Sierra was good at fighting now, but I wasn’t positive she could beat her dad in a fight. I absolutely could though.
Xander frowned saying, “I can tell you want to do that.” I felt compelled to explain, “It’s not that…I don’t….which you said…you know…I do…that sounds nice…but it’s… umm complicated. I mean… I don’t like Black Path… which you know. I have been very outspoken and clear about that to anyone who listens. Edward Davis is trash.”
Xander raised an eyebrow, “I’ve always wondered if you spoke about him like that outside of emails. Technically speaking, Alpha Davis is your Alpha.” I snorted, “That spinless piece of crap is not my Alpha. It’s a miracle the man can stand… because I’m telling you he has no spine. Literally. It can’t exist. YOU are my Alpha. Not him.” I was going to continue when his lips were on mine.
I moaned into his mouth before straddling him. Freya snickered, “You can thank a goddess for your Werewolf like abilities and your DNA. Or you would not be able to have sexy time after last night. You’d be so hungover.” I replied, “So… no… I will not thank any goddess… at all… and…. I feel fine.”
Alexander’s tongue slid into my mouth which had my hips moving of their own accord against his. He laid down and picked me up by my waist, sitting me over his face. I blushed and almost moved off him, but his tongue was faster than I was.
I was quickly moaning while his tongue did magical things. I gripped the headboard, gasping. My hips were moving in sync with his ministrations now. I gently pinched my own nipple and pictured Xander’s mouth there instead.
I couldn’t help but think of his completely naked body against mine. I came seconds later. Xander popped behind me. His grip on my waist kept me from falling. He moved his hoodie and nipped at my neck. His hand moved down to the bottom of his hoodie that I was wearing.
I leaned back against him as his hand went under the hem. He trailed circles on my abs. He whispered, “Is this ok?” I nodded. He pulled me flush against him. His hand went in a straight line up to my breasts. I’d never been happier with my choice not to put a bra on.
I was panting by the time I felt his rough hands cup my boob. I whimpered simply from his touch. Xander groaned, “Fuck. Your skin is so soft and perfect.” His fingers began to gently tease my nipples. He growled and attacked my neck with his lips and teeth.
He kissed up towards my ear and whispered, “I’m going to do to your neck what I want to do to your perky, perfectly round nipples. Do you understand?” I nodded. Xander spanked me demanding, “Answer me.” I gulped, “I understand.”
Xander bit my ear, “Call me your Alpha.” I smiled and bit my lip, “I understand, my Alpha.” He lightly pinched my nipple and flicked his other hand over my clit. I jumped, but his arm held me firmly against his rock hard body.
Xander whispered in my ear, “Close your eyes and picture my mouth on your nipple while I do this.” I closed my eyes panting, “Ok, my Alpha.” Xander growled softly in my ear. One hand was flicking my nipples and rubbing them while the other was rubbing my clit.
Xander began sucking and nipping on my neck. I was picturing that there was no hoodie between us. That his lips were actually on my nipple. I threw my head back onto his chest, ‘Don’t stop… My Alpha please don’t stop.”
He growled against my neck and went lower to my marking spot. My legs began to tremble, but he didn't let up. I needed to touch him. I reached my hand around to his leg. I moved my butt away from him and took him in my hand. He nipped harder at my neck.
I gasped and began to pump him with my hand. Xander bit my neck hard before ordering, “Come for me, Lovebug.” I had no idea how he spoke while biting me, but I was past caring. My body immediately obeyed him. I screamed, “XANDER!”
I was breathing hard when he eased my hand off him. He commanded me, “Hold onto the headboard.” I blindly did what he said. His hands gripped my hips and felt him guide himself to my entrance. He slid into me as if he’d never left. I shuddered from the pleasure of feeling him inside me.
He kissed my shoulder through the hoodie before he moved one of his hands back inside the front of it and on my breasts. I whimpered. He turned my head and kissed me fiercely as he thrust inside me. I was moaning in his mouth.
When we broke apart, he grunted, “See how much pleasure I can give you?” I moaned loudly, “Yes, my Alpha.” Xander pinched my nipple harder at the same time as he thrusted. God that felt so good. He told me, “You’re mine.” I agreed, “Yours. I’ve always been yours.”
Mentally I added since I was three years old. I’d known since I was a pup that I belonged to him and him alone. His one hand gripped my hip tightly as he growled possessively. I didn’t even care if he bruised my hip. It would be proof this all really happened.
Sierra linked me, “Umm are you ok up there?” I replied, “Fine. SHHH.” Sierra linked back laughing. I blocked her out. Both Xander’s hands were both on my hips now as he slammed into me. My hand nearly came off the headboard.
