I was usually punished on that day too. Every year. This would be the first year I wasn’t in Black Path….to be punished. Well, I’m sure it was waiting for me when I got back.
Sierra linked me, “How interesting he already knows your favorite color is red.” I replied, “It’s kind of obvious….and purple is a close second.” She sighed, “You’re being obtuse and I’m pretty sure it’s not intentional.” Umm rude. I didn’t know what she meant but it felt like Freya did.
Once we finished eating Xander was ready to leave. Except he had no idea Sierra wouldn’t be done eating for at least a halfhour. Sierra urged out loud and over link, “Go. Be with your Xander.” I asked, “Are you sure?”
Sierra snorted, “I’m beyond sure I want you to go be with him. For my own part, I’m getting some from my mate when we get home. Go get you some of that man. You’ve been crushing on him since you were three years old. I mean seriously the UNIVERSE threw you together. He wasn’t supposed to be at the show.” She was right.
He absolutely was not supposed to be there because I’d have known if he was…. and I would not have been there. Sierra added, “It’s past time you had some fun. You haven’t had any since I’ve met you. You train, you experiment, you create, you dance, but you don’t have fun. You’ve had fun tonight. Go. Be with him. Trust yourself. Your heart is telling you he wants you. Don’t listen to your head.” I nodded to her….but my head was right. Freya said, “It’s not.” It was.
I could argue with Sierra that killing bad people could be considered fun…I also met a lot of interesting and new people…I was uniting the secret and unknown Supernaturals together. I had fun when Kinglsey introduced me to the Yule Cats. They were fun…so…I mean I did go kill more people while she had sex….but Grandma Yule Cat was fun.
I wondered if Benny was around. Maybe I could talk to him…or Alastair….JJ would be best. He was definitely fun… Xander would probably like to spend time with them too…since it was all on the down low anyway…Benny was being difficult about everything though.
Freya snorted, “But you understand his quest to do avenge his family himself.” Yes, because I was on my own quest. I reasoned, “Yes, but we are with Xander and they are family. They know them.” She hummed, “He can lie.”
I asked, “Why would Benny lie about that? I’ve seen him with some of Xander’s cousins anyway. He does leave really fast. Thistime he could hang out. If I need fun, he definitely does.” She snorted but I was pretty sure I was right.
With that settled Xander and I ran outside. Several people chucked at us. Then he pulled me into him and began to dance. I couldn’t help my smile. Fairies were good dancers, and Xander was no exception. I taught him some moves so we could do flips. He picked it up in a flash then kissed me again.
I swear this time I heard fireworks. Eventually we parted and took off again. He popped us closer to the house to race. Freya laughed sleepily, “He’s in for it.” He was. I was insanely fast and I always had been. With my wolf, I’d bet I was faster.
She hummed, “Good assumption and it’s incredibly accurate.” That made me laugh. I’d often wanted to ask Alpha Emmett to race me….just to see who was faster…probably him but I’d get closer to beating him than anyone else.
I took off knowing Xander wasn’t going to catch me. He might be able to be right behind if he hadn’t been so surprised. I teased him then wanted to slap myself. He just kissed me again though…Ok.. so he wasn’t mad. Freya agreed, “He’s definitely not mad.”
It was ok by me if he’d kiss me every time I ranted. It was nicer than the things people usually said to try to get me to stop. Not that their way worked. My heart hurt when he said I was perfect. I wasn’t. I was going to be a problem for him. Freya argued, “We are his best asset.” Not really.
We walked inside and talked through some things. He seemed upset by several things I’d said. Freya hummed, “More like that this happened to you. Not that you said it.” His eating lard comment set me off. I’d pay him….so much money to see that.
We discussed moving. Freya scoffed, “We are moving. I will not live with those horrid people. I’d kill that Alpha the second I was strong enough.” I replied, “I could kill him.” I just hadn’tbecause while Caine was ready to take over now, the other packs weren’t yet.
Caine also doubted he was ready but that was because of the years his dad had of putting him down…I needed Xander’s mom psychology degree but… I didn’t have one. I could get one though…food for thought.
Freya purred, “He offered to move for us and our position. He is a true Alpha.” I agreed, “He is but they would never let him come.” She scoffed, “If he wanted to come they could not stop him.” I replied, “They would never let him see what truly happened in their pack. Besides, we don’t know he will want us in Black Mountain after we explain it all.”
I tried to explain that to him but it wasn’t coming out right. I was trying to keep my tears from falling. I desperately wanted to hear all these words from him….but once he knew….that might not be the case. Freya whispered, “It will be. He already loves us.” She didn’t know that. She didn’t understand.
Freya sighed, “I have all your memories Melanie. It may be slow going through them right now, but I know that no one should have blamed you. They were the ones who were wrong.”
“Any family would’ve done the same to protect their pups. The Warriors should’ve helped. Hunters shouldn’t have been in the heart of the pack. Someone had to help them.” She was right. Someone had to let them in. Was Jason in danger? I’d have to figure it out.
I resolved to tell him the whole story the second his mission was over. If we went to Black Mountain together….Elise and EJ would recognize me in a second. I didn’t know what either of them knew about my situation.
I was also certain Xander’s dad, Alpha Eric Conners, would put it together too. He was on vacation and based on my projections Princess Luna Haley was likely in her concupiscence. So…he might be busy.
Freya snorted, “The amount you know about this family you never met deeply impresses me.” That was good…since I knew practically everything about them. Xander made declarations about the emotional baggage I had and I knew at that moment my heart was gone.
It had been his for seventeen years when you really thought about it. When he said he was proud of me, I nearly jumped him. I’d been working so hard to make everyone from my past proud of me for almost seven years.
No one besides Mason and Hendrick ever said they were proud of me anymore. I felt all those lonely alone spaces in me begin to fill up. Freya was here now and Xander was too.
I didn't even know if Jason and I could have a relationship at this point. Maybe we could get over the hurt between us one day. We’d never be like we were though. Mom, Dad, and Tristan would want me to try though… I could try for them… we’d just need therapy. A LOT of therapy.
I broached the subject of marking. He couldn't do that until he knew everything. Freya grumbled, “I get it but…” I interrupted her, “It has to be his choice with all the facts… out there for him to decide… I can’t take his choice away from him like that.” Freya sighed in discontent.
I understood that feeling. I desperately wanted him to mark me, but he needed the full picture. Freya told me, “So tell him.” I reiterated, “I want this time with him. Don’t you?” Freya didn’t say anything, but I knew she agreed.
She just wasn’t as scared as I was that he would reject me. The words had haunted me for four years. I’d sat in my car outside the diner for five hours the day after my eighteenth birthday trying to decide if I should just go to Xander.
