Page 28 of When We Fell Again
Sadie: You have to tell me EVERYTHING!!
An amused smile tugged at the corner of my mouth.So she’s been telling her friend about me?
Before I could look at the next message that pinged up, Lex came out of the bathroom. Even dressed down in a pair of leggings and a slightly oversized t-shirt, she looked amazing.
“How long until the food gets here?”
Never mind that dinner was on the way, all I could think about was eating her. Dragging my mind out of the gutter, I made up a timeframe.
“Can I get a couple of pills while I’m here too?” The mild humiliation I felt having to ask for them would soon be erased when the calming effects of the opioids kicked in.
“Sure.” Lex rummaged in her handbag, handing over the entire box. “Look, after everything that’s happened, you might as well have the packet back.” She stared me straight in the eye, our fingers brushing as she handed it over. “I trust you not to get fucked up on them.”
I cocked an eyebrow. “You don’t know me very well then, do you?”
“Maybe I don’t anymore. But maybe we need to change that.”
Her gaze cut me right to the core, every inch of my body on alert, wanting to reach out and touch her.
But any move I wanted to make was thwarted by a knock on the door and a call of, “Room service.”
Disappointed, I went to answer it while Lex cleared us a place on her couch.
The waiter placed the tray on the low table in front of the couch, and I mentally cursed him for interrupting a moment.
A moment I wanted to repeat.
Lex’s gaze swept over the food. “You got Coke?”
I waved the packet of drugs in her direction. “Remember you said you trusted me not to get fucked up?”
She laughed. “True. And if you’re to prove me right, then Coke is the only thing that will touch your lips tonight.”
I could think of other things I wanted to touch my lips, but now wasn’t the time to fracture this truce between us.
We ate, chatting about how the tour had gone so far and what dates there were to come. It was close to the end of the tour. After Reading, we had Southampton and a final date in London. And then I wouldn’t see Lex again. It wasn’t a thought that filled me with joy.
“How are you finding being on tour again after everything that’s happened over the past year?” Once we’d finished and left the trays outside the door, Lex curled up at her end of the sofa.
I couldn’t deny the buzz that came with performing, and it had been one of the things I’d missed. But after Dexter, I went totally off the rails, unable to deal with the massive impact it had on my life. Nothing anyone said or did could stop me on the path to self-destruction. Until Kelvin threatened to take it all away from me. I couldn’t do that to Levi, Jude, and Robbie. The guys had stuck with me through it all, and the thought of losing it terrified me.
Throw Lex coming back into my life, and suddenly everything started to make sense again after twelve months of fog.
“You’re the one good thing that’s happened to me lately,” I admitted.
Her brow creased in confusion. “Then explain why you were such a prick to me at the start of the tour.”
“Because I couldn’t… I can’t deal with how seeing you again feels.”
She sucked in her lips, swallowing hard. “What does that mean?”
It means that every other woman I’ve been with, fucked, touched, tried to have a relationship with hasn’t measured up to what I had with you.
I should have been able to say the words, but hey, actions speak louder than words, right?
Without a word, I slid along the couch until my body touched hers. Tilting her chin to face me, I leaned in, gently brushing my lips with hers. For a moment, her body tensed, almost ready to push me away, but then she relaxed into my chest. The soft, almost tentative kiss grew deeper, more insistent. I threaded my hands into her soft hair, pulling her towards me.
“Wait.”
