Page 60 of Lost in Her
He thinks what he is doing to her is love.But it’s not.It’s obsession plain and simple.This man doesn’t know how to love someone because he loves his money and power above all else.
He would put his money and power above her every time.That isn’t love.
“Yes.”I roar, feeling the rage and fear building inside me.
Tristan takes a deep breath.“I do love her.And I will give her a good life, Ethan.Once I deal with you.”His own emotions are becoming more unhinged.He prides himself on having control, but in this moment, he is starting to lose it and he will continue to fucking lose it.
Jenn’s eyes widen at his words.I feel my heart racing and breaking at the same time.Jenn shakes her head and quickly turns around in his arms.He lets her as he releases his hold on her throat allowing her to turn around and look at him.
“I will do whatever you want, Tristan.Just please don’t hurt him” she states in a low defeated voice that makes me want to scream.
Tristan looks down at Jenn, his breathing is steady and even as he rests his hand on her lower back.
“You will stay here with me?”Tristan asks her softly.
“Yes,” she replies, not needing to think about her answer.There is no fucking way.
“Fuck, no, Jenn.What are you doing?”But she doesn’t answer me.Instead she leans into Tristan.Her eyes locked with his.He leans down and connects his lips to hers as my heart fucking shatters.
“You will marry me?”Tristan asks in the same soft voice.
“Yes,” she says again, agreeing to whatever he asks her.This can’t be happening.I will not let this fucking happen.
“Jenn, don’t do this,” I scream, pulling harder on the chains, but it doesn’t do shit.She wraps her arms around him, leaning into him, making my stomach turn into knots.
My heart stops when I finally realize what’s happening.She wraps her arms around him and then quickly pulls out of his arms and takes several steps back towards me.She lifts up the gun and points it at him.It happens so fast I can see the confusion consume Tristan’s face for a moment.
He takes a deep breath and slowly puts his hands behind his back.His eyes are filled with rage and sadness by what she has just done.“What are you doing?”Tristan asks just as softly as he has done before.
“Saving him.”I can hear the rage in her voice.She was never going to give in to him.I don’t know why I thought she would.I know her.She is strong and I know that she loves me—she wouldn’t fucking give herself to Tristan.I feel the shame and guilt my doubts bring on.Even though the doubts didn’t stay very long I’m ashamed and guilty for even having them in the first place.
“You would really rather be with him than me?”Tristan asks in a pained, confused voice.
What the fuck did he think was going to happen?That he was going to kidnap her, kill her lover, and she would thank him and fall in love with him?Did he actually think he could force her to not love me anymore?Fucking idiot.
“Yes.”She starts to back up towards the button on the wall.
Tristan doesn’t move as he watches her continue to back up, keeping the gun pointed right at his face.Her hands are steady.
“Jenn, please don’t do this,” Tristan pleads with her as she continues to back up.I watch her carefully as she gets to the wall and quickly pushes the button.The chains fall to the floor and I fall to my knees, quickly removing the chains from my wrists.Jenn is at my side helping me to my feet.
We both watch as Tristan calmly leans down and grabs the gun from his leg.He stands up straight and slowly lifts the gun and points it right at my head.“If you don’t come to my side right now, Jenn, I will shoot him.”
I quickly grab the gun from Jenn’s now shaky hands and slowly move in front of her.She rests her hands against my back.Oh, how I have missed feeling her touch on my skin.
“You really fucking willing to die for her?”Tristan asks, pointing the gun at me.
“Yes.Are you?”
“You have no idea what I am willing to do for her!”He has completely lost all control just like I knew he would.
“I guess we are about to find out, aren’t we?”I allow a smile to form across my lips.
Jenn leans in and gently kisses my back, making my heart race.I am doing this for her.Everything I have done is for her.
She has saved me.She has made me realize that I am not just a monster.And I am worthy of love.She is my everything.And this is the best way I can show her just how much I really do love her and how much she means to me.
This is not how I wanted it to end, but I am at peace knowing she will be free, my child will grow up loved and cared for.After all, that is all I can ask for after what I have done in my life.
