Page 30 of Lost in Her
Once they take those girls away from the studio, my father’s production business will fall apart and there are a lot of powerful men that go there to get their pleasure.There are going to be a lot of unhappy men.
“Thank you.”I need to get to Ethan.Every second we are apart the deeper he is going to get within himself.And I can’t lose him.I need him.Not for his protection.I just needhim.
I quickly turn and make my way across the lawn to the metal gate.I put in the code Ethan gave me when I first got here and walk through when it opens.I am almost in a run to my apartment.I stop at my door and put in the code hearing it unlock.I push open the door and take several steps inside as the door closes and locks behind me.I look down at the floor and see his boots, socks, boxers, pants, and shirt in a trail leading to the bathroom.
I hear the shower running.I slowly make my way through the apartment and stop outside of the cracked bathroom door.
I gently push the door open.Ethan is standing in front of the mirror, his head is down, his hands grabbing tightly onto the sink.
I step into the bathroom, stopping behind him.His breathing is steady and even.I slowly scan his body ...he looks like a fucking god.Muscle on top of muscle making my heart race.
“Ethan.”I whisper his name.But he doesn’t turn around.He takes a deep breath.
“I told him to set you free.All he had to do was say the words.But he refused.Even after I shot two of his men in the head.He wouldn’t fucking say the words,” Ethan states in an angry and pained voice.
I gently rest my hand on his back, feeling him tense under my touch.
“All he had to do was say the words.But he wouldn’t, he fucking wouldn’t.And then I looked into his eyes and that is when I knew.I knew he would never let you be free.He would never let you go.He would just keep hurting you.And I couldn’t ...I couldn’t let that happen.”Ethan’s voice is so low and shaky I can barely hear him.But I try.I try to hear his words, to feel his pain, to understand him in this moment.
I feel my heart racing so fast that I can hear it in my ears.Ethan looks up into the mirror, lifts his hand, and punches the mirror, making it shatter.
I drop my hand and take a deep breath, Shawn’s words running in a loop in my head.
Don’t let him push you away ...don’t let him push you away.He needs you ...he needs you.
I walk into him and wrap my arms around his waist.I rest the side of my face against his back, listening to his heartbeat.He stands still and then lifts his hands and rests them on my arm.
“I had to, Hon.I had to kill him,” he whispers in a shaky, pained voice.
“It’s okay, Ethan.You’re okay,” I whisper, continuing to listen to his heartbeat.I tighten my arms around him.Because, honestly, I am fucking scared he is going to leave.That he is going to disappear.
I slowly release my hold on him as he turns around in my arms.I tighten them around him again as soon as he’s facing me, making sure if he wanted to get away from me, he wouldn’t be able to so easily.
“Ethan.”
He lifts his hands and cups my face.He leans down and connects my lips to his.I open up for him, feeling his tongue enter my mouth.The kiss is hard and rough, filled with pain and longing.
I melt against his body as I release my hold on his waist.I lift my hands and wrap them around his neck as he leans down and grabs my legs, lifting me off the ground.I wrap my legs around his waist as he turns around and places me on the sink.I can feel his need.His desire and his pain.
I want it all.
I want all of him.
Even if it fucking shatters me for a completely different reason.
