Page 47 of Nothing To Lose
If he hadn't just milked me for all I was worth and wrung me out, I'm ninety-nine percent positive I would have come again.
As my breaths slow, I become aware of how quiet it is. When I'm able to lift my head to look down, Tyler is sitting at the end of the bed with his knees to his chest and a hand covering his face.
"I am so sorry," he says, the words slow and deliberate. "I didn't—I didn't mean to?—"
"Tyler, come here," I say, patting the bed next to me and trying not to laugh. He doesn't move. "I need you to come down here because I'm incapable of movement. My legs are jelly, and honestly, my brain is a little mushy too, so go easy on me."
He chuckles a little at that and crawls into the space beside me. I pull him closer, so his head is on my chest. We're quiet for a long time. I'm still trying to get my faculties back, but I also want him to have a moment to process. It's pretty clear he's not ready to start the conversation, so I go first.
"I have never come that hard in my life."
Tyler snorts. "Yeah, okay."
"I'm not kidding. I think I might have died a little. That scream you heard was my spirit leaving my body. It hasn't completely returned yet."
His body shakes with laughter, and I pull him closer, kissing him on the head.
"So, I could be mistaken, but just moments after I levitated outside my own consciousness, did you, um…"
Tyler groans and tries to cover his face, but I reach around and hold his chin, angling his face up so I can look at him. His eyes flash, the dim light reflecting dark blue pools of arousal. He might be embarrassed, but he liked that.A lot.Maybe more than even I did.
"I couldn't help it."
Goddamn, he sounds so small and unsure of himself. I hate it, but I also find it stupidly endearing and kind of want to infantilize him a little, wrap him up and kiss him and tell him he's precious.
Yeah, my brain is mush.
"I couldn't either. It was really fucking hot."
His entire body relaxes, breath leaving him in a whoosh. "I mean, as hot as premature ejaculation can be, I guess."
"Whether it was intentional or not, it's okay to like what you like. But for the record, I liked it too. A lot."
He laughs again. "It was probably the sexiest thing I've ever seen," he admits. "I was looking at your, uh–" He clears his throat, and I can feel the heat from his blush on my chest. "I was thinking about what it would feel like inside you, and then I had this mental image of my cum dripping out, and I just kind of…" One hand comes up to his head and he mimes an explosion.
"Goddamn," I groan. "I've never?—"
"We don't have to do it!" he exclaims quickly. "It was just a weird brain malfunction."
Tightening my arm around him, I continue my thought. "I've never done that before, but I'm not sure I've ever been more turned on by an idea in my life."
"Really? Even though we're not…You've mentioned before that you don't really do relationships, and you haven’t had unprotected sex because of that."
"I also said I would get tested again for you if that was something you wanted," I point out. "But also… Are we not technically in a relationship?"
"What?"
"I mean, I'm not suggesting that we're gonna get married or anything like that, but we've been spending twenty-four hours a day with each other for the past week and a half and I'm not tired of you yet. There's definitely attraction here, and I think we have a mutual respect for each other. I'm not sleeping with anyone else, and I don't think you are. We could agree to keep it that way for as long as we're a…thing. And just see how it goes?"
Am I coming on too strong?I don't know how not to, though. I have too many thoughts, too many feelings, and not enough brain cells to process them all.
"You want to be in a relationship? With me?" I'm not sure what to make of his incredulous tone.
"I like you, Tyler. And I think you like me, too. Whatever you want to call it, I want to keep doing this with you."
"I really did suck your brains out through your dick, didn't I?"
A laugh explodes out of me. "Just you wait, the first sign of life below the belt, and it's your turn."
