Page 3 of Wherever You Are
My oldest brother sets a glare on me. “Nice of you to show up when all the work is done,” Davis says.
I feel my face crunch in confusion. “What are you talking about?”
“The greenhouse,” Mitchell explains. “You didn’t hear mom talk about how she needed help rearranging the plants and lights? You were at that dinner the other night.”
I don’t remember. Heat gathers again. Sweat caking my body and stifling me, but I can’t unfreeze enough to unzip my jacket.
Our mom looks between them. “Boys, that conversation happened after your brother already left.”
“Like he always does,” Hunter adds, digging the knife in my back.
I drag my gaze across the snow.
Our mom lets out a sigh and says, “Be nice.”
“He doesn’t make it easy,” Hunter snaps.
Likewise.
I swallow the retort and clear my throat to ask, “How did you all even get here? I didn’t see your cars?”
“Uber,” Davis says. “We were all still a little hungover from last night.”
Right.
“We actually still need some help with the heaters and lights,” Mitchell says to me. “You want to pitch in?” He nods towards the greenhouse and his eyes soften on me.
I think that Mitchell really believes he’s giving me a lifeline to be in good graces with our parents and our brothers.
It’s sad.
Because what I really need is for him to stick up for me. To keep our two older brothers from beating on me. But even if Mitchell tried now, he’d be twenty-one years too late.
“I left my car running,” I say. “I wasn’t staying long.”
My mom squeezes my shoulder. “I’ll shut it off for you.” She holds out a palm so I can pass her the keys. “Go spend some time with your brothers.”
I want to sayno.
Deep in my gut, I don’t want to be here, but it feels impossible to leave in this moment.
I nod tensely, and my brothers disappear back into the greenhouse while I search my pockets for car keys. My mom waits for me, patient.
I’m hot and I end up pulling off my jacket. Doing a piss-poor job, half my T-shirt rides up my waist in the process. As I clutch the keys and wad up my jacket, I look over at my mom.
Her eyes are unblinking and zeroed in on my bare abdomen. At the fresh welts that mar my cold skin. Ones from Hunter after he tackled me outside, the holiday dinner from hell. It wasn’t even the first bad one I’ve had.
We’re both motionless, except for our gazes that meet. Truths exposed and raw, and it’s not like she hasn’t known or seen before.
This just feels different. Maybe because I’m older. Maybe because she has the ability to protect me right here, right now, and I’m twenty-one and suffering under the belief that she won’t.
She never has before.
My keys are cold in my hand.
She reaches out to stroke my cheek, and I stare down at the snow. Her soft touch feels as painful as the thorns she cut.
I glance at the greenhouse, then to my mom.
