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Although who am I to talk?
Isaac laughs.
“Well, I’m not, but there’s a reason I don’t want him showing that.”
“Oh yeah, and what is that?” Ezra asks, walking back in with only a tank top but still no pants.
I guess that’s the version of getting dressed for this ex-porn star.
“Becausethishappens,” Isaac replies, waving his hands over both mine and Cam’s faces.
“Oh,” is Ezra’s only reply with a cheeky grin.
“Anyway…” Isaac says. He turns to Cam. “I’m Isaac. And this is Ezra. And you are?”
Oh shit. Yes. I didn’t even bother introducing them. I guess I was more distracted than I realized.
“I’m Camden, but you can call me Cam,” he says, shaking both their hands.
After all the niceties, Isaac turns to me, and I can see the questions in his eyes.
“I wasn’t sure what you had in mind, but I can make us all lunch or we can head out?” he says instead of what he really wants to ask.
“Yeah, what was the big thing you wanted to tell us?” Ezra adds for good measure.
Well, why wait any longer, am I right? The door is still open, and we’re still standing around it. As good a place as any to come out.
“Oh that,” I say. “I… wanted to introduce you to Cam.”
He smiles at me, and I have the very strong urge to kiss him. I’ll need to rectify that as soon as this is all out of the way.
Isaac and Ezra wave at him again while I take a deep breath and shut up the inner voice that’s arguing with me about doing this.
It’s not the time, it keeps saying.
Only it is.
“Cam is my… he’s my boyfriend,” I finally say.
Isaac and Ezra’s jaws drop in a very cartoonish kind of way. It looks like I’ll have to wrench those jaws back up off the floor.
“Nice to meet you everyone,” Cam says with a whisper and waves at them. I guess there’s no hiding how awkward their shock is.
“Wh-what do you mean your boyfriend?” Isaac says after what feels like ages.
“Wait a minute. You’re gay?” Ezra asks. “I thought you said he had a girlfriend,” he says to Isaac.
“I prefer pansexual, thank you very much,” I tell both of them.
It has been something I’ve been pondering since Camden and I hooked up, and I’ve done a lot of research, not just on Cam, but also about myself. I don’t want to be ignorant or say the wrong thing, or put myself into a box that’s not right or that’s offensive to other people.
And what I’ve come to realize is that I likepeople. I’ve been denying it for a while, but I like all kinds of people. Yes, I have a strong preference for women, but I also like men. But putting myself in the bisexual box doesn’t feel right. So pansexual it is. If I even have to label myself at all.
“Wh-what? How? Since when?” Isaac asks. His jaw is still wide open.
“What do you mean since when? Why is it such a surprise? You’ve been teasing me about it for years now,” I say.
Isaac turns to Cam, to Ezra and then finally back to me.
