Page 77 of Sombra
“I think anything you did would please me, Kim. Wear what pleases you, and I will delight in your pleasure. Do what you like, and I’ll appreciate it day and night.”
She’s just right there, right by my cock. If I moved her down a little bit, we could have another session. Like the other three we had last night. I’m thinking about the shower,especially.
But a cold feeling comes over me as I realize something. “Amor?”
“Tavo.”
“Are you on the pill?”
She shakes her head, and her finger stills and presses to her lips. “No. Ohmigod.” Her skin becomes so light it’s translucent, and her cheeks burn. Her breathing is shallow. “I didn’t even think about it. I guess because I never really did it with Shane. We’dused a condom, but it was so infrequent, like twice, and we didn’t need to think about birth control.” She covers her mouth. “Oh, crap! I’m sorry, Tavo. I shouldn’t talk about another man in your bed. How could I be so stupid?”
I’m watching her, seeing her react from shock to panic to perhaps acceptance, and for a moment I fantasize of her belly full of my baby. How beautiful that wouldbe. How proud I’d be.
That doesn’t matter, though. Right now, she’s my only focus. “You’re not stupid, amor. I wasn’t thinking about it either. I got carried away.”
“Carried away four times!”
“We should have had a talk before I ravaged you. I’m so sorry. I should have protected you.”
She bites her lip and takes a deep, shuddering breath.
“I’m clean. I alwaysuse condoms. I have never not used one before. I just got overwhelmed with you.”
Tears form in the corner of her eyes.
“Kim, mi amor. What do you want? I can take you to thefarmacia. I think there’s a morning-after pill. We can find resources. Whatever you need. I’m fine with whatever you decide.”
Kim whispers, “I want to take the pill.”
“Okay. We’ll go today. I’lltake care of you.”
“There’s a lot to take care of.” She rolls off me and sits up straight, her eyes locking on mine. “For starters, how do I get back to my room?”
I get a funny feeling in my gut. “What do you mean? I walk you back.”
“I don’t want your mom to yell at you again.”
Oh. “She won’t.”
“She might if she sees me coming out of here looking like this. Orif one of your brothers tells her. Or if your aunt or someone else does. I’ll have to sneak back.”
What does this mean? Is she embarrassed to be with me? I struggle to sit up and, once I’m up, I pull her into my lap. “I don’t want you to sneak. I’m proud of you. I’m proud to be with you, and I don’t care who knows it. We don’t need to hide our feelings for each other.”
“Yeah, butI might not be ready to do that.” She sighs. “Can’t we just stay in bed all day instead? I never ditch class, but I want to.”
“All day sounds like heaven, but school and taking care of you is more important today.”
A crack has come into our cozy world this morning. I don’t want to let anyone in, because no one else needs to be part of this relationship. It’s just me and Kim and that’sit.
But the real world exists. She and I have a lot to deal with, and she may not be ready to face other people right now. She’s made a huge change in a short period of time.
“I don’t want you to feel like you need to hide, but I’m not going to push you. Why don’t we clean up, and I walk you back to the house? We can walk through the orchard, if you like, as if we were on an earlymorning walk.”
Her grateful eyes tell me that’s the right thing to do. Or at least what she needs right now.
I continue, “I don’t want to keep you a secret, but I’m okay with letting this just be us for a while. We don’t need anyone else’s approval. They don’t have to know.”
After she gets dressed in her clothes from last night and smooths her hair, we go the long way to thehouse through the huerta. I can tell she wants to hold my hand, but doesn’t. When we get to her room, I kiss her so hard she gets thrill-bumps on her arms. When we break apart, breathless and nervous that we’re going to get caught, I touch her nose and tell her, “I’ll take you to school in an hour.”
