Page 67 of The Forgotten
“Madam, you can’t go in there,” a female cop said, but Quinn ignored her and ran toward Gabe.
“Gabe, what’s happened?” she cried. “Where is Emma?”
Gabe’s head snapped up at the sound of her voice. He looked stricken, his eyes filled with fear and guilt as he met Quinn’s gaze. She froze in her tracks, understanding dawning with sickening clarity. The police were here about Emma.
“And you are?” the detective asked gently.
“I’m Quinn Allenby, Dr. Russell’s fiancée. Where is Emma?” Quinn pleaded.
“Ms. Allenby, I’m DI Delaney. We don’t have a clear picture of what happened as of yet. Emma might have been taken, or she might have wandered off. We have our people scouring the streets, and we are questioning all the witnesses.”
“I looked away for a moment,” Gabe choked out. “Just a moment. I got an email from work. It’s all my fault, Quinn. My fault,” he muttered.
Gabe looked as if he were about to cry. His mobile was on the bench next to him, an innocent-looking object that was thecause of so much fear and self-loathing. Quinn pulled Gabe into her arms in a futile effort to hold him together. He was shaking badly. Gabe was always the rational one. He believed that any situation could be resolved if approached with common sense and proper information, and that most mistakes weren’t fatal, just foolish. But this was different. Emma wasn’t a mistake to fix. She was a child—his child. Emma was a four-year-old girl who was currently out there somewhere, with someone, or alone, but not with her father, and Gabe was coming apart at the seams.
“Gabe, they’ll find her,” Quinn said, taking his face between her hands. “TheyWILLfind her.”
“Dr. Russell, is there anything else you can recall? Did you notice anyone watching Emma, or anyone suspicious hanging about the play area? Is Emma prone to wandering off?”
Gabe shook his head. “I didn’t notice anything odd. She was right there on the swing. There were plenty of other people about, but they were all still there when I noticed she was gone. She’s never wandered off before, but I’ve only had her for two months.”
“Had her?” DI Delaney asked.
“Emma lived with her mother in Scotland until her mother’s death. Emma came to live with us in January,” Quinn explained.
“How has her mental state been?” the detective asked.
Quinn opened her mouth to reply, then suddenly stopped, recalling a conversation she had with Emma only a few days ago. She’d helped Emma out of the tub and was toweling her dry.Emma normally loved having a bath, but that evening she had been preoccupied and unusually quiet. She didn’t even play with theLittle Mermaidtoy that she always took into the bath with her. She liked to make Ariel swim, but this time, she tried to drown her, holding her under with her foot and sighing with annoyance when the plastic figurine floated back to the top when released.
“Quinn, will I ever see my Mum and Gran again?” Emma had asked. Quinn balked at the question. She had no idea what Jenna McAllister had told Emma of death, if anything at all. Nor did she have any idea if Jenna had been religious. Perhaps Jenna had mentioned Heaven, but she’d been a scientist, so it was quite possible that she hadn’t believed in an afterlife. On the other hand, she’d also been a Scottish Presbyterian, so must have accepted some notion of Heaven.
“Perhaps someday,” Quinn replied, knowing that Emma wouldn’t let her get away with changing the subject.
Phoebe and Graeme had taken Emma to church while she stayed with them in Berwick, but Quinn and Gabe hadn’t really discussed Emma’s religious education, simply assuming that she would accept whatever they did. They were both Church of England, so Emma would come along to church with them when they went, which wasn’t often.
“She’s still grieving, Detective,” Quinn said. “It will take time for her to accept that both her mother and grandmother are gone.” Detective Delaney nodded in understanding and stepped aside to speak to one of his officers.
“How long has she been gone?” Quinn asked Gabe, who sank back down on the bench again as if his legs couldn’t hold him up.
“About a half hour, but it feels like much longer,” Gabe replied, his tone flat and wooden. “It’s all my fault, Quinn. I’m not fit to be a parent.”
“Stop talking rubbish,” Quinn replied, taking his cold hand in hers. “You are an amazing father, and you will be a great dad to our baby.”
“I don’t deserve to have a baby,” Gabe mumbled. Quinn didn’t reply. She supposed that had the situation been reversed she’d be self-flagellating as well. Assigning blame was easier than thinking of what would happen if Emma wasn’t found. The longer she was gone, the greater chance of her disappearing forever. The thought made Quinn feel sick. She’d had moments of fear in her life, but she had never felt as terrified as she did at this moment. The thought of losing Emma, or of Emma suffering at the hands of some unknown person was so gut-wrenching that she couldn’t even bear to contemplate the idea.
“They will find her,” Quinn murmured to herself, needing to hear the words.
Quinn and Gabe sat side by side for what felt like hours but was probably no more than ten minutes. Neither paid attention to the crackle of the police radios, but the atmosphere in the park suddenly changed. Gabe’s head shot up, having instinctively perceived the shift, and his eyes sought Detective Delaney, who was speaking rapidly into the radio.
The detective smiled and gave Quinn and Gabe a thumbs-up. Gabe sprang to his feet as a tall, black officer strode into the park, carrying Emma in his arms. Emma’s face was streaked with tears, but she appeared to be unhurt. The officer set Emma down,and she threw herself at Gabe, burying her face in his chest as he lifted her up and held her close.
“Are you all right?” Gabe asked as he stroked her hair and kissed the top of her head. He looked like he would never let her go. “Please say you’re all right, Emma.”
Emma nodded miserably. “I thought I saw Mum,” she whimpered. “I ran after her and called out, but she didn’t turn around. It wasn’t her,” Emma cried. “I just wanted to see my mum.”
“It’s OK, darling,” Quinn said as she wrapped her arms around Emma and Gabe. “No one is angry with you. We’re just glad you’re all right.” Of course,all rightwas a relative term. Emma hadn’t been taken by a stranger, or come to any harm, but it would take years for her to truly be all right. She’d miss Jenna for the rest of her life and have instances of sudden panic and overwhelming hope when seeing someone who resembled her mother. Emma hadn’t seen Jenna’s corpse, nor had she attended the funeral. In her mind, her mother was as she had last seen her, alive and well. Somewhere deep inside, she still believed that perhaps she was out there somewhere, and would return one day, suddenly and without a fuss.
“She was standing on the corner, afraid to cross the street,” the officer said, smiling at Emma. “Smart girl not to go wading into traffic. She called out to us when she saw us cruising by.”
