Page 49 of Murder & Mayhem
“Shh, it’s okay, baby boy. I’m right here.” He left no space, the thin layer of fabric the only thing between us. Jamie was pressed against me, and I could feel him, still mostly soft, below my belly button. He didn’t seem to even realize how intimate this felt, and I wasn’t going to be the one to break it.
“Nicky,” he whispered, and fuck, how badly I wanted it to be Daddy coming out of his lips. But I had no right to ask that yet.
“I got you, sweetheart.” I tightened my arms around him, and because it didn’t seem to be enough, I wrapped my legs around him too, holding him against me. I almost told him again that he could stop at any time, but I could feel the tension ease inch by inch and I didn’t want to end that by reminding him of his trauma. I had to trust he would tell me ifhe needed space, and I would stay aware of any changes in his body language.
Feeling his dick up against me was already a lot, but then my boy shifted his face and before I could even get it together enough to breathe, his mouth was around my left nipple.
It wasn’t sexual. That, I was sure of. The way he was sucking and whimpering, he wasn’t trying anything besides self-soothing. I hadn’t really noticed an oral fixation or anything like that, but he was getting something out of this, and if he got comfort by sucking, I was thrilled for him to get it from me. I wanted him to.
But my nipples had always been sensitive, and the little sucking motions he kept making as his lips moved were destroying me slowly. My dick was so fucking hard, it could cut through glass. I took a few breaths and closed my eyes.
Eventually, the sucking stopped, though his mouth stayed exactly where it was. My nipple was gonna be chafed, but that was so far down my list of worries. Jamie’s breath evened out and he finally fell asleep. I kissed the top of his head. “I got you, sweetheart. I’ll take care of you always.”
I drifted off, hoping I’d be able to keep my whispered promise.
CHAPTER 18
DOMINIC
My dreams were weird. A lot of things about Jamie and Bailey’s situation had triggered some less than pleasant memories of my childhood, so it would’ve made sense if that had carried over into my sleep. It had happened often enough when some of our targets’ crimes had hit too close to home.
But, I wasn’t having nightmares this time. I wasn’t sure they could even be considered dreams, more sensations. Pleasure wracked through my body, punctuated by soft, pleasurable moans. There was something on top of me, but I wasn’t trapped. The weight added to the pleasure. It was wanted.
“Mmmmm,” I groaned in my half-asleep state, eyes still closed. Something warm and wet was nuzzling at my cock and it felt so fucking good, I about melted into the bed, enjoying whatever this weird experience was offering me. Not quite a wet dream, but not reality either. Then, the weight shifted, something sharp and hard jamming into my thigh.
My eyes flew open as my muddled brain tried to determinewhat was a threat and what wasn’t. Whatever it was that was weighing down my legs made a sound between a sigh and a whimper. Not a weight, Jamie. Jamie was draped over my legs, body relaxed from sleep. The blanket had somehow gotten tangled around his ankles, exposing his back and the curve of his ass to me. His arms hung limp over his head, one of them resting on my stomach, the other across my knees since he was lying mostly on an angle. His hair stuck up in all different directions, which looked adorable, and I wanted to take a picture and memorialize it forever, even after this was over.
I couldn’t see his face because it was pressed down between my legs as he sucked and licked at my cock and balls through the thin fabric of my underwear.
I slammed my eyes shut in an effort to get myself under control, but it was impossible if Jamie was going to keep mouthing at me like that.
“Jamie?” I asked softly. I was pretty sure he was still asleep. His body was still so relaxed, none of that tension he naturally carried when he was awake. I wasn’t sure if he even knew what he was doing. There was no response.
I sucked in a breath and lightly placed my hand on the top of his head, my fingers loosely threading through his locks. “Jamie, are you awake?”
He buried his nose farther into my groin, but other than that, there was no response.
Fuck, it felt so good, but if he was asleep and didn’t realize what he was doing, I needed to wake him up.
“Jamie,” I said a little louder with a bit more force. “I need you to wake up, beautiful.”
There was a moan, a little more sucking action at my now soaked underwear, and then he froze.
It happened so fast, I barely had a chance to react. Relaxed and pliant Jamie was immediately replaced by tense Jamie, hisbody completely rigid. He planted his arms onto the mattress, a little tremor running through him. He didn’t move, not right away.
Not wanting to spook him, I pet his head gently. “It’s okay, sweetheart. You’re okay. You’re safe.” I had no idea what he was reacting to with such fear. Was it the position he was in? Was he afraid of my reaction? I had to tread lightly here.
That seemed to snap him into action. He was pushing away, all the way away, until he was cowering on the other side of the bed, his expression horrified and his body shaking nearly uncontrollably.
“Jamie—” My voice was calm and measured, neutral as I tried to figure out what the fuck was happening.
“I-I’m sorry! Oh fuck, I’m so sorry, Dominic. I swear I didn’t realize what I was doing. I’d never—oh shit, I’m gonna be sick.” Then he scrambled off the bed and sprinted into the bathroom. He didn’t bother to close the door before he started to dry heave.
I was out of bed in an instant, ready to fix it all for this boy, but my brain caught up and I hesitated at the doorway. Did I go in? Give him some space? If I knew what had him so upset, it would be easier to decide my next move.
Jamie was kneeling over the toilet. Nothing was coming out, but it didn’t stop his heaving. My chest ached with a deep-seated need to make this better.
“Are you okay?” I finally settled on. It was a terrible question. He obviously wasn’t.
