Page 112 of Before You
JJ takes my nipple in his delicious mouth again, and my body falls over the cliff, a cry slipping from me as I tangle my fingers in his dark waves, holding him close.
My breathing is heavy when JJ looks up at me, a pleased smile on his pretty face. “What?” I ask, and he shakes his head.
“I love you.”
“I love you too.” I smile at him, chuckling as I brush a stray dark wave out of his face. “Are you okay?” I ask, and JJ nods, his cheeks pinking.
“Just thinking about how far I need to dig my grave.”
Grave? What?I shift, sitting up to look at him, noting how his green eyes drift to look at my breasts, his jaw clenching. “What are you talking about?”
“I’m not sure how long a guy is supposed to last, and what if I accidentally hurt you? I try so hard to be mindful of how much bigger I am than you, and I want it to be good for you, but what if I’m so bad at sex you want to break up with me?” JJ admits, and my breath catches. I can’t believe I didn’t think about JJ being nervous and having performance anxiety.
I reach up and cup his face in my hands. “Amore mio,there is nothing you could do to make me want to break up with you—especially sex. I don’t care how long you last because I only want to feel close to you. You’re doing a pretty damn good job of making it good for me if you can’t tell,” I say, but he still looks unsure. “We don’t have to do anything else if you’re not ready, but it’s never crossed my mind you might hurt me. If I don’t like what you’re doing, I promise I’ll tell you if you promise to do the same.”
JJ nods, and I lean forward, kissing him gently on the forehead. “I promise too. I want to be with you,” he says, sliding his hand into my hair to pull my mouth to his again.
Shedding the last of our clothes, I reach into the drawer of my nightstand, grabbing a condom from the box. I try not to drool as I let my gaze roam over JJ, enjoying the work of art that is his body. Without a doubt, everything about JJ is proportional from his large frame to his hands—everything.
“Do you want to put it on?” JJ asks, stroking his cock, his hungry eyes never leaving mine when I rip open the packet. A hiss escapes him when I replace his hand with my own to position the latex over the tip, slowly rolling it down his thick length. Despite having wished I’d waited for JJ, I’m a little glad it’s not my first time, because I think I’d be more nervous about whether he’d fit. JJ is still bigger than both of my previous partners, but since he already made me orgasm, I’m not worried.
“How do you want me?” I ask, my body practically vibrating with a need for JJ to be inside me.
“On top,” he says, his voice rough, and I rest my hand on his chest to push him back into the pillows.
“You’re definitely a Pillow Princess,” I say, causing him to laugh until I climb over him, positioning my knees on the sides of his hips to lean down and kiss JJ again. His hands glide up the outside of my thighs before grabbing my ass to move me forward, and I curl my fingers on his chest as he slides against my opening without penetrating me.
“Please,” JJ whispers against my mouth, and I reach between us to wrap my hand around the base of his cock, lining our hips up.
I bite my lip as I sink down, feeling him stretch me in a way no one else has. My body sings in pleasure, but I don’t dare shut my eyes at the feeling because I refuse to miss a second of the look on JJ’s handsome face. “Fuck,” he mutters, his fingertips digging into my skin as he grips my hips. “You can take it, sweetheart. Make it fit,” he says through clenched teeth.
“Oh my god,” I say, doing my best, but it’s too much on the first try, my body not accustomed to something so big. When I lower myself for a second time, his eyes flutter shut in ecstasy, a groan slipping from his addicting lips when I bottom out, holding still for a moment while my body adjusts to the feeling. The strong column of his neck exposed as he tilts his head back into the pillows. He looks straight out of a dream.
“You feel . . .” he trails off, and I agree. There are no words for how right this feels.
“Oh fuck,” I swear, rising up most of the way, taking all of JJ again, my hand on his firm chest for balance. I feel so full.
My heart is racing in my chest as he thrusts up, meeting me halfway, and I gasp, our movements growing smoother as we learn how our bodies work together. JJ’s hands leave my hips as I rock them, fully seated to grind my clit against his pelvis,before cupping my breasts, his thumbs pressing against my sensitive nipples again.
I arch into his touch, a gasp escaping me as he thrusts up into me. I can feel the pressure in my body start to grow again as JJ plays with my nipples, tweaking them as his movements grow less controlled.“Yes,”I pant, looking down between us to watch him thrust into me, the sight adding to the heightened sensations until he lifts me off him completely. I look at JJ, my jaw slightly ajar, wondering what the hell he’s doing.
“I want you on your back,” JJ says, rolling us to flip our positions. My mouth waters as he kneels between my legs, my body aching to be filled by him again.
“JJ, please,”I whimper, shifting restlessly.
“There you go again using that word,” he murmurs, hooking his hands around the back of my thighs to pull me closer to him.
I open my mouth to ask what’s so wrong with the word please, but JJ pushes into me, and I moan instead. I wrap my legs around his waist, doing my best to meet his strokes as he leans down, kissing me with a desperation I didn’t know existed. JJ’s mouth is hot and demanding, and I respond with just as much enthusiasm.
He groans, the sound echoing through every inch of my body as I drag my nails over his wide shoulders. JJ turns his head, breaking our connection as my thighs tremble. “Fuck me,please,” I say, and my taunt is rewarded with a rumble from JJ, his lips latching onto my neck as he thrusts roughly, the room filling with the sounds of our moans.
“Oh fuck,” JJ mumbles against my throat, and I love feeling him lose control. JJ’s grip tightens as his hips jerk, holding me close as his cock throbs inside me, his strong body shuddering as he comes. I smile when his body sags against mine, my heart racing in my chest. “Perfect. You’re perfect,” he says, out ofbreath, but as JJ eases off me, his hand slips between my legs, circling my clit.
I sigh in relief, turning my head to look at JJ as he watches me with a relaxed smile. I chase my impending orgasm, teetering on the edge as I keep my eyes locked on JJ’s as my hand joins his, my legs falling open more.
“Come for me, sweetheart,” he says, and my back arches up at the same time my breathing hitches, my orgasm sweeping over me as my toes curl.
I fall into the dream of forever as JJ leans in to press the sweetest kiss against my lips.
