Page 89 of Even Vampires Bleed
That’s the truth, after all.
“I know you didn’t want to come,” he says and my mouth falls open from the shock of his words.
How could he have known?
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Why couldn’t I keep my mouth shut?
I have no idea what propelled me to say that I knew she didn’t want to come. I had promised myself that I wouldn’t take offense and would act as if I didn’t know, to give her the benefit of the doubt.
And look, I managed to keep that to myself for three days, and considering she’s been asleep until not so long ago, it doesn’t sound like a feat at all.
It sounds like I couldn’t keep my mouth shut.
It also sounds like I’m complaining a bit.
And truly, I’m not.
It was just facts. The truth. Nothing else.
But now I wonder how she will react.
Well, to start with, she seems shocked. I don’t know if it’s the shock that I knew or if she’s shocked that I dared to voice it, but she’s shocked all the same. Her mouth fell open and now her eyes are bulging out.
“You don’t have to explain,” I tell her when I finally take pity on her and break the silence my words installed.
She seems to scramble for words now as if it’s not possible for her not to explain, but once again I stop her mind from spiraling and hold my hand out to her so she finally gets up completely. We go back to the house.
I’m getting hungry, and here, no one is going to cook for us.
I’ve learned that the hard way these past three days, and I’m pretty sure tonight is going to be the same as the other days, and I’m going to make pasta or rice with whatever meat is on top of the cooler.
When Cassiopé finally grabs my hand, she doesn’t look shocked anymore, but she refuses to cross my eyes.
Oh well, we’re back to the fact she doesn’t want to spend time with me.
We walk back to the house, and that’s when I realize two things. Cassiopé doesn’t drop my hand, and I rather like it.
Scratch that, three things. She might not hate me completely if she can bear to hold my hand.
Why does that make me happy?
Why does it start making me hard?
No, no, no.
Calm down. I can’t have a hard on again. I don’t think she noticed it three days ago in the state she was in, but she’s well awake now and I can’t have that happening.
Especially not over her just holding my hand.
I was a virgin.I don’t see any other explanation for my state right now.
This is not normal behavior. I know that.
Why can’t my body obey me?
