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“Holy shit, Jax, don’t stop!”
“I've got you, baby. Let go, I’ll fall with you.”
He reaches between us, his hand finding my clit, and begins rubbing expertly. I can’t hold on any longer. My impending orgasm makes my body go rigid and it’s at that point he opens his mouth wide and bites on the juncture between my neck and shoulder, growling into the flesh and rutting into me even harder than before. I let out a cry that can probably be heard from a mile away. I don’t care. I’m no longer here. I’m floating somewhere above my body, looking at him as his thrusts become staggered and he lets out a roar, coming inside me.
We’re both covered in sweat as my soul returns to my body. I open my eyes to see him above me, covering my face, my neck, my chest and hands in small, gentle kisses. The complete opposite to how he just was. He notices my eyes opening and softly caresses my cheek with his fingers.
“There you are baby. You ok?”
I nod my response. “More than ok.”
The smile he gives is enough to brighten even the rainiest of days. I can’t wait to see more of that smile in the time to come. However much time that may be. With his arms around me, he rotates us so that I’m nestled into his chest and we settle against one another.
As I lie there, stroking the hair on his chest, I can’t help but wonder what’s to come in our future. Just a few months ago, I didn’t think I’d have anything even remotely close to what I have in this moment. I was a wandering soul, no real purpose apart to what I needed to survive. Now, it looks like I no longer need to just survive. I can finally live. With Jax, Hawk and Cole, the possibilities are endless and it’s like the apocalypse hasn’t even happened. It’s a peaceful feeling. That thought as well as the steady thrum of Jax’s heartbeat undermy cheek lulls me into a deeper sleep than I’ve had in a while.
Chapter 41
Hawk
“That’s it. I’m not waiting any longer. Ican’twait any longer.” I pick up my pistol from the table and check the magazine. Force of habit. I know I didn’t fire off any rounds but old habits die hard. Once satisfied, I put it into my leg holster, pocket my knife and lift my bag to my shoulders on my way to the front door. Cole grabs my shoulder and turns me just before I reach it.
“Be reasonable, Hawk, we don’t know if that horde is gone yet or not. It’s only been a few hours. Plus, she’s in good hands. Jax is with her. He won’t let anything happen to her. Youknowthis.”
I do know this. While Jax had been fighting and hiding his feelings from her, they’ve been loud and clear to me. The side glances when he thinks we’re not looking, the subtle way he tries to stay far away from her only for his body to subconsciously move closer. Hell, even the fact that he took off shows just how much he cares about her. She might have thought he left because he wanted nothing to do with her but in reality, he did it because he cares about her so much that he left everything he has here. His house, land, livelihood, even the sheer safety the estate provides just so that he could assure her safety.
Chivalry ain’t dead folks....
I just hope he’s finally gotten his head out of his ass and let go. Losing Emma was fucking hard on him. We all sawit. Cole and I helped see him through those months after. It was rough. I’ll be honest. The nightmares. The silence. Oddly enough, he used to be the life of the party. Always talking, telling stories. But after Emma, quiet stillness. He eventually found peace in the estate, just like he always did - it’s his safe space - but I didn’t see that spark return to his eyes until Aly.
She threw a wrench into his plans and a fire into his eyes. Sure, he said he didn’t want her there, but I saw the truth. I saw Jax come back to life that day. Whether he wants to admit it or not, Aly woke him up and brought him back from months and months of internal torture for something that he had no control over. She’s our little ray of sunshine in this dusty, Godforsaken place, which is why I need to get to her. Right. Now.
“Iambeing reasonable. I know she’s with Jax. I know she’s safe. But Ineedto see her. To speak to her. To tell her that I love her crazy ass and that if she even thinks about doing anything like this again, I’m going to tie her to the bed and fuck the crazy right out of her.”
My temper is getting the better of me. Being without her is getting to me. I nearly fell to the ground when we heard Jax say that he found her and that she was safe. If it weren’t for the fucking horde we would’ve been there by now and I would have been able to see Aly with my own eyes and hold her with my own damn arms, kiss her til her lips went numb but no, instead I’ve had to skulk around this abandoned house with Cole, pacing a worn path up and down the foyer, and just fucking wait. Dammit, I hate waiting. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a nice place. Plenty of bedrooms, lots of space to entertain, even has an algae-filled hot tub outside on the deck, you know... those quality top notch amenities everyone looks for in a dream home, but it’s missing the one feature I plan to never live without, and that’s Aly.
I take a few breaths and steady my heartrate. Once I’mable to take a breath without aching to huff it out again in frustration, I look Cole right in his eyes, my shoulders slumping from the overexertion of trying and failing to keep my composure. All of my fight is gone, only the truth remains.
“I love her, Cole.” I shrug my shoulders and shake my head cause it’s that simple. “I love her and I’ve waited this long for her to come into our lives and I don’t want to wait another second to bring her back.”
He nods in understanding. I see it in him too. She steamrolled through this house and gave a team of lost boys a purpose again.
“I know. So do I. It hurts me to not be able to look into her eyes right now and tell her that I love her as well. But we have to wait.” His tone shifts from serious to contemplative to playful. “Although, I do agree with the restraints if she tries to pull this shit again. I'm ready to spank her ass for not listening to us. In fact, I think I might just do that.”
The lightness of his tone takes me back and I can’t help but laugh. A little bit of weight taken off my shoulders but not enough to fully relieve the burden. Cole can try, but he knows I'm the Joker of the group.
“Seriously? Fuck, man. First you went all dommy when we were all together and now this? Spankings?! When the fuck did this start?! Not that I'm opposed or anything but who the fuck are you and where is our loveable, sweet, little Cole?”
He shakes his head, smiling at my outburst. “It’s always been me. I’ve just gotten used to hiding it. It’s not as if we’ve ever shared a woman before. When would it have come up?”
“True, true. But damn! I like this side of you. Gonna have to upgrade you to Two-face and start calling you Harvey instead of Alfred.” That pulls a laugh from both of us. The serious atmosphere taking a step back for a second.
“Two-face was a villain and while I might be quiet, observant and secretively devilish, we both know I don’t have a mean bone in my body.”
I smirk at that. “Aly gives you a mean bone-er..."He sighs at my terrible pun but nods.
“That she does. I won’t deny it. That girl has gotten under my skin and wiggled her way into my heart just like the rest of you.” He shakes his head, laughing under his breath. “We’re all fucked.”
“Ain’t that the truth. And I wouldn’t have it any other way. But first things first. We gotta get her back. End of story. Let’s go.” I move away from him and walk towards the door, waving my hand to encourage him to follow.
