Page 40 of Purgatory
“Oh, fuck that feels so good,” he says on a groan as hemoves up my body to take my lips again. His fingers plunge in and out of my wet heat, lifting me higher and higher until I'm almost careening over that cliff of ecstasy. I’m still stroking him, his hips rocking into my hand, when he separates from the kiss and looks into my eyes, his dick twitching in my hand from how close he is. I release his cock and grab his face in between my two hands, beseeching him.
“Please...” I say, breathlessly, as I lift my hips to his. I’m so close I'm practically shaking, but I need to feel him in me. “Please...” I try to show my need in my eyes as I whisper, “I want you to. I need to feel you.”
He says nothing back, just lines up to me and plunges in to the hilt, making both of our heads fly back on a groan. The level of fullness I feel is indescribable. He holds himself fully submersed as he returns to our kiss. My arms wrap around and grab onto his shoulder blades, holding on for dear life.
Our limbs tangle as his hips move back and forth. He takes his time, dragging out every bit of ecstasy from my body as he mimics the movement of the waves on the beach. I move my hips to match his and press my legs against his ass, pushing him further into me. Suddenly, he stops, pushing a hand on my pelvis to stop my efforts.
“No, don’t, I’m too close. You keep doing that and I'm not going to be able to pull out when I need to.” He says breathlessly. His eyes pinched in concentration to try to tame his orgasm from coming too early.
I lift my hand to his face, caressing, understanding and appreciating his concern. “It’s ok, I have an IUD.”
If something in him didn’t already break earlier, it definitely did just then because he goes feral. His lips crash back down onto mine with a growl of satisfaction, and his hips piston in and out until I'm practically screaming with pleasure. My orgasm climbing at an uncontrollable rate. He is absolutelyfrenzied, clawing at my body, pushing on my hips to meet his pelvis, and pinning my knees to my armpits, allowing him to go even deeper.
One of his hands travels down to where he is drilling into me, finding my clit in seconds.
“Oh, holy fuck I'm going to come!” I scream into the air.
He smiles, circling his thumb on my clit, making the nerves short circuit into fireworks
“That’s ok, so am I. Right in your hot. Fucking. Pussy.” Each word punctuated by the pumping of his hips. “Come for me. I want to feel you squeeze every last drop out of me.”
“Oh fuck... oh fuck... OH FUCK!” I explode. Tensing around his cock and squeezing every last drop of his cum like he asked as he fills me up.
When his orgasm ends, he collapses on top of me. Both of us breathing hard as we recover from the aftershocks. After a minute or so, he looks up at me.
“That was so fucking incredible. I’ve never done anything like that.”
I giggle, “Done what? Had sex on a beach?”
His arm goes out to the lake and then back to me. “Had sex on a beach, come inside without a condom... had sex with you....” He ends his sentence as his lips meet mine. A goofy smile on his face when we part. He goes to stand up and puts his hand out for me to grab onto as I stand.
“Oh, fuck me sideways....” He brings his hands up to his hair and pulls on the roots. “It just keeps on getting better...that--” he points to his cum dripping down the inside of my thigh “is hot as hell.”
I look down and notice the white, thick cream crawling down my inner thighs. I can’t say that I feel as “hot as hell”ashe indicated but that’s to be expected. Guys are weird. I giggle regardless, a little embarrassed, and take a step away from him, moving my way back into the water to clean off. Coming back to him, I’m shocked to find he’s holding out a towel.
“Where the hell did you get that? We didn’t bring any down with us,” I ask.
He points off to a small service shed that I must have missed when we came down here.
“We stash them down here just in case we need to dry off quickly, along with a bunch of other stuff. Normally, we’d just walk back and air dry but I figured I’d give you the option.” He narrows his eyes and smirks over at me.
I smile back at his thoughtfulness and take the towel, wrapping it around myself to stem off the chill now coming from the water. He rubs his hands up and down my towel clad arms, helping me to dry off and offer some friction to warm me up. The satisfaction in his eyes is undeniable and I can’t help but smile back at him, blissed beyond words.
A few minutes later, we’re both fully dressed again and start the walk back to the house.
“So, how was your day?” He asks nonchalantly.
I giggle because he knows, first hand, that the past hour or so has been amazing. Hell... the whole day has been amazing. But then, a sudden burst of guilt coils around my insides and constricts my heart. I just had sex with Hawk. I had sex with Cole this morning. I almost had sex with Jax the other day. Is this what I want? Do I want to continue with Hawk and Cole and maybe one day, Jax, if he’ll have me? Hawk posed the question and option of letting both Cole and Hawk have me. To be theirs completely. He also said they were both ok with it. Coupled with what Cole stated earlier, I’d have to conclude that they were. But what if they just said they are and it all backfires and I fuck everything up? Do I want that on myconscience? Could I even handle two of them, let alone what my hungry libido has to say about all three of them? It’s one thing to say I could. It’s a whole other ballgame to actually do it. It’s a lot to wrap my head around. But this is what I wanted, wasn’t it? This is what I imagined the other night. Is it possible have what I want, for once? To not overthink and to just do it? To have my cakeandeat it too? I think I’ve already made my choice.
“Fuck me...” I say on an exhale.
Yup, you wanton bitch, that’s what they did!
He laughs back, as I realize I just said that out loud, and gives me a satisfied smile that melts my insides all over again. “Yea, I did.”
“What the fuck am I gonna do?” I mumble under my breath, holding back a smile and shaking my head at myself.
Well, it’s settled... all of them... well not Jax but who knows at this point with my track record lately...
